Dear Abraham,
This is indeed a situation many of us face – we have prior perceptions of the Torah/Bible; however, what it actually is/what the Kabbalists gave us are entirely different than those approaches.
The Torah is the instruction from the Light – essentially it speaks of nothing in the physical world or anything on the outside, but rather it speaks of man’s inner world and the changes one goes through in order to become like the Creator, the quality of love and bestowal.
There are many materials on Dr. Laitman’s blog, and I highly recommend reading there to get a deeper grasp.
Best of luck!
Christian @KabU