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I should have no fear of change by this point. My life has been filled with change, and I can look backward and see it has always worked for the better. However, an involuntary pair of visions always come to the fore. One is of the favorable end for me with everything working out and being blessed and such, and then there is the other, where I see an old me sitting at the end an approach from some store with a sign, “Disabled vet, anything helps.” I kid you not. I cannot make the negative one go away, and that one scares me, whenever it appears.
The change I visualize does not scare me, it seems like a wonderful change for the better (for me at least). How ever, I am an addict, and I have tried to quit many times. It seems that I can be afraid of the unknown state of being free (and accept responsibility of my own destiny). I think I create an illusion of being in control via my addictions and at the same time try to escape my own feelings of fear and insecurity. I think the best support we can give eachother in the upcomming changes would be to start building communities. It’s already happening in various places and in differet forms and goals. It would alleaviate the sense of walking alone, changeing alone and “fighting”. We would find meaning to the change we have to do and strength to do it (I do it not only for me, and I am not the only one doing it). And now I see what scares me about this wonderful change, and that is the fact that I HAVE to connect to real people and not just sit here comfortably and write about it…
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