I believe that I have gained a deeper understanding of the Hiddeness of the Creator. I can say all of my prayers morning and night. However, does that truly demonstrate that I have an unshakable faith in the Creator? After my prayers, I know that I can ask the Creator for what I need in my times of great need. I know I cannot fool Him because He knows me. I can feel fear, but never doubt that the Creator will hear my sincere call for help because He is the only one acting Force and there is none other than Him. I know fear by experience many times in life and death situations. And in that grip of fear, I have not doubted the Creator. I have been in life and death situations either because of a fierce earthquakes and evil people who have made an attempt in my life. I have asked The Creator for help. At the age of 21, I was a flight attendant for AeroMexico. We had to sign in for flight at exactly 6am. If we did not, we would be grounded for 24 hours, not good. I lived far from the Airport and a taxi would pick me up. All flight attendants had to, when assigned, be at the airport also at exactly 6am as back ups. This one time, the taxi was late. I arrived at the airport at 6:15am. I had a good reputation and my supervisor did not want me to have a bad check on my record. My assigned flight was to Cancun with a two day layover. My supervisor changed my flight and sent me to Mazaltan, also a two day layover. Mazatlan and Cancun were more or less the same distance from Mexico City. My supervisor sent the back up flight attendant in my place. On our way back, when we entered through the back where all pilots and flight attendants entered, there were a multitude of pilots and supervisors telling us, the crew, to call our families immediately to let them know we were ok. I was living with an uncle to let him know I was ok. He was surprised. It was not yet in the news. Then I saw a group of pilots with whom I had flown before and I went up to them and asked to know what was going on. The shock that I found out that the flight that was for me, the plane had gone down, no survivors and the flight  attendant who went in my place, had only been there one month. I cried so much asking myself “why.” I called my Papa the next day and told him what had happened. I asked my Papa “why.” It was supposed to be me. His response was that in the greater Force, it was not my time. To answer the question regarding the understanding of the forces working in the world, I am now learning the “why” that is the Spiritual World. I am now learning that there are forces working in the world. And I am learning that as a human being, creature, living in the lower world, I can achieve, by following the teachings of Kabbalah, how to enter the Spiritual World.