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[Gil]

Ask, connect, inspire.

[Lyndon]

Dear instructor,

My second question today is about feelings.

Studying with an ardent desire to progress and being vigilant and progressing is a lifelong commitment.  I have the re-occurring and niggling feeling(s) that the goal, the prize, that which I am striving to achieve and that which I sincerely want with all my heart will not be mine  for such a long time so far that it is in some distant future a million miles from me now.

This is in itself crushing but combined with the recognition that until I have attained the goal of truth I am subject to all of life’s ups-and-downs, losses, tragedies, illnesses, loss of loved ones, death and so on and so on.  Sometimes these thoughts and feelings are unbearable; the recognition of what I will have to go through in order to attain a true final victory is sometimes too much me to bear.

I feel that all the studying I do, reading, considering, feeling, wanting etc are but akin to laying foundation blocks upon which something in the future may be constructed but I am uncertain.

I recognise the above isn’t really a question but, equally, if you have any pointers these would be warmly appreciated.  Warm wishes again (apologies if I am being heavy).  Lyndon.

[Jim – KabU Instructor]

Hello Lyndon. To my knowledge, everyone on this path goes through such feelings, and more than once. That’s one of the reasons we study in groups. We help each other. When one is down the others pick him up. Everyone gets their turn at this. Rabash speaks of this in several places. We always remember to help our Friends because our time of need will come. All the ups and downs, ins and outs, come to us from the Creator for our benefit.

[Lyndon]

Dear Instructor,

My question is about bestowal.

In a sincere attempt to progress I have tried to apply, in practical terms, the idea of bestowal as I feel that it something one has to do; but as I have absolutely no construct or idea of what bestowal is I am in a muddle and at loss.

In-class people speak of being kind or being patient with work colleagues etc. but I feel that this does not come anywhere near to what bestowal really is as I sense deeply that true bestowal is a complete and utter change in one’s nature and thus so much more than this surly.

I am concerned that, as the wily old ego is such a cunning trickster and I still 100% beguiled, I could so easily become ensnared by being kind and patient to engender good feeling which is so false and I am holding out until I have some sense of what bestowal might actually be without indulging in surface platitudes with work colleagues, family members and friends thinking this is bestowal when all it is doing is feeding one’s ego who will run of saying “oh Lyndon you are such a nice kind person”.

I am still in profound darkness regarding bestowal, can you offer any words of help or advice regarding this as someone who has not even the slightest idea of what this might be or how to change.

Warmest wishes.  Lyndon.

[Jim – KabU Instructor]

Hello Lyndon. I also don’t know what bestowal is, that’s why we study kabbalah. The text book answer is that bestowal is the ability to make an action without receiving any reward. We can get some start on understanding what bestowal is by noting what it is not. In other words, as you pointed out, seeing that no matter what I do my ego gets some reward. Here’s a link to a Rabash article on the subject:
http://www.kabbalah.info/eng/content/view/frame/115988?/eng/content/view/full/115988&main

 

[Wikus de Bruyn]

Could you perhaps help me with a definition of what a disturbance is in Kabbalah?

[Jim – KabU Instructor]

Hello Wikus, good question. Basically, a disturbance is anything that distracts me from the goal of revealing the Creator. However, a disturbances are an important part of the process. Here’s a quote from Baal HaSulam that speaks to this.

Baal HaSulam, Shamati, Article No. 172, “The Matter of Preventions and Delays”

All the preventions and delays that appear before our eyes are but a form of nearing—the Creator wants to bring us closer, and all these preventions bring us only nearing, since without them we would have no possibility of approaching Him. This is so because, by nature, there is no greater distance, as we are made of pure matter while the Creator is higher than high. Only when one begins to approach does he begin to feel the distance between us. And any prevention one overcomes brings the way closer for that person. This is so because one grows accustomed to moving on a line of growing farther.

[Lyndon]

Dear Insructor, Could you please post the link for the item in Mike’s class [June 23, 2022 – Concealment and Revelation | Graduate Class] ‘Reveal to the Creator’ .

Thanks You.  Lyndon S

[Jim – KabU Instructor]

Hi Lyndon. Here’s a reply from Beth Shillington: I don’t know how to access it in the archive.  [email protected] could help.

I suggest you ask Mike at his next class. I’m betting other students would like to know the same thing – it has always been a popular piece.

[Wikus de Bruyn]

Thank you, Jim, this helps a lot. I also heard in today’s morning lesson that a disturbance is measured against importance towards the goal.

[Liza]

Hello!

Head of Languages contact please?

[Jim – KabU Instructor]

Hi Li za. I sent your post to Zohar. He replied: This chat is seen by the heads of the English department.

[Lyndon]

Dear Instructor,

My question is, is there a list of all websites available to the students in the Graduate Environment and which websites offered by KabU  are best for example videos, searching terms, letters, terms.  You see, I get very mixed up with laitman.com, Arvut, kabu.media etc

I get confused.  Thank you.  Lyndon

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