[Audrey]

Hello dear friends,

Happy to be joining you on this journey. My years of seeking have been extensive, long and challenging. I’ve explored mysticism through the lens of many of the Eastern cultures and spiritual paths, including a bit of Kabbalah. Each has added to greater understanding, and yet, after all these decades, I still feel what the Buddhists call the ‘Beginners Mind’.

Now, with the convergence of so many elements meeting simultaneously, I often feel numb with overwhelm: the political world tilting in a direction foreign to me and threatening; mother earth suffering from humanity’s abuse; and now, at a time when I am much older, I am without. Without funds, without friends, few family members, without work, and without a home. I know much of this was my doing. Eliminating people along the way from my life I could no longer accept, even friends from long ago; our visions and world views too disparate now to find a happy meeting place. Being careless and frivolous with money when I was earning a great deal: a combination of filling a void from childhood and total ignorance about financial management and investing.  Did my soul really plan this as a necessary learning tool?  Is it karma? Is there a way out of this quagmire?  Or a better way through it? My inner and outer lives are at odds. The so-called ‘real’ world presents a dire picture; bereft of the comfort I once knew of the material world. Yes, there is fear. And yet, I still feel the strong tug and pull of something else, something bigger at play. I lean into that force hoping it will open my heart and mind just enough for me to hear the whisper in my ear of divine guidance and the strength and wisdom to follow its lead.

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