[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hi Humehr,

I think you’re getting “energy” and “intention” confused.

If you want to talk about your daily life, how you interact with human society, I suppose you could categorize this interaction based on how you distribute your “energy” meaning, the allotted calories – mental and physical – in engaging with what you choose and don’t necessarily choose to encounter with each day. If you pay money to receive food, then that energy is coming back to you in the form of food, and that energy is then again being used as ATP for you cells etc. etc..

If you want to talk about what you’re doing for others, you can only refer to the extent you were able to rise above yourself and ask for the quality of bestowal for others. If you’re asking for others and not yourself, then you have no calculation about what’s coming back to you since bestowal in spirituality means you’ve risen above that calculation completely.

Thanks!

Chris

[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hi Ty,

I believe here Baal HaSulam is referring to how each attribute needs to coexist with other attributes, that there needs to be a contradiction and “mixing” of them and the “laws” of these attributes allow for this.

Thanks!

Chris

[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hi Niklas,

Pharaoh is an inner force, not an external one. Even if you wanted to relate it to one particular individual as a certain “force”, Kabbalah will only refer to it as the inner force within a person that the Creator uses to exhaust those who want to reach bestowal. It’s the force that ultimately shows a person that they only want for themselves and they will never be able to leave (exit) Egypt, the land (desire) that serves only the ego.

Thanks!

Chris

[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hey Niklas,

You’re going through many of the normal “barrage” of thoughts and desires many of us go through when we first find the path. You are focused on too many details, though. Our egoistic brain cannot grasp what spirituality is, it’s so completely opposite that we can go into these loops and opposite of opposite and backwards of backwards and become very confused. That’s why it’s extremely important to stay focused on the materials on the course, stay with them and just let them work on you, and let the environment work on you. You really don’t need to do anything else. It’s not the brain or the mind that will lead you to spirituality. You’re wanting your heart to change. This is what you should expect and this is what you should want. You’ll be shown where your ego is, how it behaves and how it engulfes your entire existence – especially in all the places you thought it wasn’t. All of your thoughts about spirituality are still within the ego and you won’t be able to escape it no matter how hard you try. The faster you come to this realization, the faster you’ll be able to settle into wanting your heart to change and with that change in heart, your mind will begin to serve those new desires of wanting to be like the Creator.

Go to your job, do normal things, eat whatever you want – it doesn’t matter. The light will work on you as long as you want it to. It doesn’t discriminate on any lifestyle choices or any character attributes or personalities. All it can do is work to bring a person closer to the Creator and this is done only by being in an environment that washes you and changes you from the inside if you want it to.

We don’t correct ourselves from 0 to 125 in one go. The process in a process, and it’s drawn out so you can consciously feel what’s happening to you and choose to go through it of your accord. The Creator, no doubt, is doing all of this to you, including you sending these questions and it’s also Him responding to you here. What happened – happened, but it’s on you to make the next step. You’ll feel like it’s you doing it, that’s what you’re supposed to feel – but the change is when you want to be more included in the environment that will ultimately lift you out of your ego.

Stay on the path, get through all the courses, continue to the grad environment and you’ll already have a much different perspective than you do now.

Best of luck,

Chris

[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hi Niklas,

There’s a lot to try and respond to here, but first of all it’s important to have a job and sustain the needs of your body and take role in society where you are part of the system of give and take. You need to be able to have your necessities that the animal body requires – food/shelter etc. Without the necessities a person can’t engage in spiritual work as the body will demand attention for that instead of being able to adjust your attention towards what’s outside of your body – others.

You mention you were giving money and helping others. This is great if this is your nature and you have this inclination, but in no way is this something spiritual. Spritiuality is above matter, it’s in the realm of intentions. What we do with our arms and legs in this world has no effect in spirituality. What we do in this physical world will certainly bring us different discernments about what spirituality is, which is helpful for people who haven’t yet discovered the wisdom of Kabbalah, but if you have found the path (meaning if the Creator brought you here) it’s a sign you can already begin engaging in the truth of the matter. You mature in the right environment of like-minded individuals who also want to attain the goal of becoming like the Creator and rising above the ego where there’s no need to continue experiments about where spirituality might be in other places.

It’s a difficult thing to remember and hard for many to agree to. The ego enjoys giving to others because it gets something out of it in return. If the pleasure is felt in the ego, it’s the opposite of spirituality. Hurting others or causing others harm is really just harming ourselves in return, we just don’t see it immediately (otherwise no one would do it). If you want to go a step further, you can say that we’re all harming each other by staying in our ego since ultimately even if I’m not doing anything wrong directly to others, I’m still existing in manner that takes from them without giving. This is in relation to the system of nature as a whole. That’s why the next step in human evolution is for all of humanity to take this direction of working for the sake of the whole since this is how all of nature exists besides this most developed and egoistic component called modern humanity.

Be well,

Chris

[Chris – KabU Instructor]

Hi Humehr,

That’s a great observation. We are incapable of thinking of others, this is our nature and no one’s fault. It’s exactly how we were created. We have no force of bestowal within us, this is the thing we need to want and ask for.

When you try, however, and see you’re incapable, this is exactly the deficiency you need to turn and ask from the Creator for the strength, but without trying and making those efforts each time, you won’t come to that realization and you will not be in need of the Creator. He’s waiting for us only to ask.

Thanks!

Chris

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