[Todd]

How do I increase my propensity to pray when stressed out in the corporeal?  It seems I become critical of the ten and then it spills over into me actually criticizing the friends when stressed.  How do I teach myself to pray more?  Idk what it is but it seems deep down inside that I don’t think it will be productive to pray, does that make sense?  I mean I believe the sages but somehow the idea of prayer is not part of my deep nature and I have to remind myself to do it.

[Todd]

Does being slightly buzzed on alcohol or the devil’s lettuce increase the light a person gets?

[Todd]

Does more light work on a person when they are drunk, tired, or confused?

[Todd]

Would it be a good idea to think of drawing the reforming light for the friends while reading from the sources?  I mean when you are by yourself.  What are some tactics to use when reading by one’s self?

 

• This reply was modified 9 months ago by Todd.

[Todd]

What does Baal Hasulam mean when he says people have angular brains?  Thanks

[Todd]

What if your ten feels very shattered and disconnected and all your attempts to unite them are met with misunderstanding, indifference, and down right annoyance?  People seem even scared to communicate for fears of being wrong or upsetting someone or what not.  Then it is met with frustration from me which then leads to more indifference lack of communication and what not.  The more I do the more I care increasingly leads to more disconnection.  I feel as if I am in a position where for my own well being the only option is to gradually come to care less and less about the group for my own well being.

[Author]

Replies