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Dear Instructors,
I would like some direction on a persistent problem I am having within myself. I am highly reactive to some personalities, mostly narcism and “man-splainers”. I’m sure it subconsciously relates to past trauma but there are particular personalities that are overwhelming to me during the live events and it’s distracting my attention from the discussions. When on YouTube I started blocking them so I no longer have to see all of their responses to others earnest questions. But during zoom, I have no way to block them. Whatever this is trying to heal or expedite along my own development, please help me to better understand how to work with it. I don’t know if I am supposed to speak to them about it (I saw other attendees say snippy things to them – but passive-agressive doesn’t seem like the right response), learn to ignore it (which seems impossible to me right now), or something else. Please advise. Thank you.
Hi Marla,
If you’re referring to, for example, live events with Tony where anyone on the internet can join, where there are with that territory those who are there not to learn but to draw students to themselves, or to simply show someone that not only the person teaching is wise but that they themselves are also wise and have something to add to the conversation from their spiritual attainment – these are either people who are not yet all-the-way despaired of their ability to attain spirituality without a true teacher and need more time to develop, or they are people who have many confusions that they still need to swim up from. Authentic Kabbalah though is like a sieve that per force sifts out all except those who have a true desire that can be satisfied with nothing less than revealing the Creator while one is still living in this world. And such a person, although their ego is actually bigger, is willing to close their mouths and open their ears. They usually have learned much, and they’re now wise enough to do so, at least until they verify whether this is the path which their Point in the Heart has been restlessly seeking. From our side, we do have to openly offer our events, however it is certain that such people will fall away. You don’t necessarily need to overcome the conviction that such people who disturb others and confuse others who are trying to hear the Kabbalah teacher should depart. Of course, they are sent by the Creator as well, as help-against, but it doesn’t mean we have to agree with such disturbances. You’re right though that directly confronting the ego doesn’t work either. But we on our end will try to root out such things as we become aware of them.
Ha! I have to laugh at myself. I just completed week 2 and the section on Pluses & Minuses was like a mirror in my face to last week’s complaint! So much for non-judgement and RISE ABOVE irritation. The thought that these lovely attributes of mine might intensify, ugh…Â lots of self revelation. Now looking forward to the tools and skills of correction.
I am really joyful to have the space to recognize these things. Thank you for these amazing lessons!
Hi there! I was wondering why I’m the only student here. I see that my forum page title tells me this is private. Where is everyone? Thanks
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