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[Gianni – KabU Instructor]

Get your questions answered by a KabU instructor.

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I have spent my life experiencing the cancellation of pleasure once I received it and I always thought that the shame I felt was related to my Jewish upbringing that was peppered with guilt…. that I shouldn’t ever enjoy anything while others went without. It’s interesting to find out that there is a destiny to this feeling that is actually propelling me forward in my spiritual growth. Am I misunderstanding?

[Gianni – KabU Instructor]

Yes, although you have no work with your qualities directly – the work is with the study and drawing the Upper Light that knows how to correct them – it’s true that you’ll find later that you’re filled with special traits that can be inverted and used for spiritual progress.

[Helen J]

I watched this lesson several times, and I am still not sure if I understood it right.

I got sick on my stomach (literally) by realizing that often I am not nice to myself because of my own judgment of not deserving, not being good enough, and being jealous of other people when I see them succeed. When it is my turn, I feel that other people will be jealous or offended about my success. Is it related to spiritual shame?

[Gianni – KabU Instructor]

Hi Helen,

All this is included in the simple ego. It doesn’t matter if it’s the desire to receive like this or like that. Either I want to receive more preferable qualities, because I see that with different qualities others are succeeding more, and I simply make a rational observation about the comparison between my qualities and the qualities of others, and I conclude bitterly that it is realistic to presume that I will not receive the fulfilments I might have, were I to have more successful qualities. And of course everyone is this way, so if you will demonstrate that you can succeed more with your qualities than others can with theirs, then they will hate you, precisely to the extent that they are aware of your success. It’s not spiritual shame. But it’s true that all that we do in this world is to avoid ever arriving at a feeling of shame, that I am somehow less than another.

[Helen J]

Thanks for clarifying Gianni.

I got that. We are all the same for the creator, and we receive according to our qualities/vessels. Instead of being jealous of one another, we should be happy that they are doing well on their spiritual journey

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