[M. Güzin Kaya]

Glad to meet you all sefir’ies and besides спутник. I am Melike and to learn Kabala onn English thinking in here. I am from Turkey and half blood is Zvi side. I used to general social practices in Islamic community. Furthermore, I did not express my situation on any websites before, here is the first attempt and a little bit nervous I am. Since 2016, I got dissociative disorder identy – multi personality diagnose. Ten sefirots – exception is Daat, are represented my side with my alter egos, and actually I am just thinking about multi personality got its own limited as being ten section at least and also as being 10th man sight in any of 2 persons дума in everywhere.

To get understand what’s affected wrongly on my practices and build my bindings again truly is my another aim to been here.

Thank you for your concern, glad to meet you again.

[M. Güzin Kaya]

What if I could not bind the links between tiferet and other seflrots? Indeed, I have got about hypothesis but it is not valid due to my situation. This kind of broke links between seflrots could made persons mad or crazy and last 5 years I got hospitalized two times and my pschologic ill is dissociative disorder identify. Multi-personalities. And for me each of my alter ego is represented one of sefira. But among the way of sides are so complexity on my consciousness background.
this pschologic and psychiatristic diagnose can not be my magnificence, if it is my server ego has to stay tiferet point nearly always in stabile, even I desire this option solidly, chain between sefira that on Yakub stair would not let my breath thoughly.

How could I solve this connection problem?

(deep note, I am from Turkey and half blood coming from Sebatay,Zvi. From religional perspectives I used to social practices which are changed in time and could see obviously ‘real egos’ my family around and Islamic society.)

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