[Rene]

Hallo everyone

My name is Rene Swanepoel and I am from South Africa.

I was born and raised Christian until I came across Rabbi Tovia Singer’s channel on YouTube about 10 years ago. I knew then and there that Christianity was idolworship and totally false.

That’s where our path with Judaism started. Everything went well and we learned so many new things every day. Then my husband was suddenly diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. He suffered tremendously until he passed away 17 months later.  Four days after that, my very healty father, passed away as well. It was because of the shock of my husband’s death. I was totally devastated, and heartbroken! I suffered a great deal after the loss and had to make a lot of changes in my life.

I “accidentally” came across David Ghiyam from Kabbalah Centre on Tik Tok and started listening to his teachings. I was so fascinated by him and his knowledge and although things started to make sense, I knew that I had a lot to learn, and was every eager, but where do I start?

Now, 11 months after my husband’s death, I found total peace. I know that everything the Creator does is for the good and everything He does is with a specific purpose. I still feel there are a lot of missing pieces.  People always say I shouldn’t take life so seriously, but I think a lot about life, what is the meaning, the purpose and the reason for pain and suffering. Why did certain things happen to me, the way it did? The Creator rewards and punishes according to measure for measure, so what is it that I should learn and change to live a full life and to inherit eternal life!

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