Preparation Question: Try to imagine the sensation behind the statement “There is None Else Besides Him.” How can I feel that the entire reality is the action of the Creator?

I feel a sensation of completeness in this statement, like there is nothing missing. No duality as I had before Kabbalah. An eternal Oneness? It is unimaginably beyond my little ego right now.

To remember that there is nothing more important than the Giver.All that I sense are just different forms of the Creator; everywhere: the nature, the people I meet and interact with, every cell of my being.

Honestly, the further I go, the more confused I become. I understand the figurative meaning of the nice words here and there. I understand that the entire reality, perceived as good or evil are the actions of the creator. So, theoretically, everything is good as everything is his action or thoughts/plans. But in everyday life, good is good and bad is bad. No matter how I interpret the pain on paper, pain always hurts.

I have mixed thoughts. Why did the creator create us in the first place, on this plane, not somewhere else? Why did he ever need this creation, and then send us down 125 steps just to crawl back up where we were?

Why the need or will to bestow so that a receiver is required? Why are the numbers and stages as they are? Why are Kabbalah books recommended when it is explicitly stressed that, as long as we are in the branches level, we will never understand the roots up there and their intended meanings?  He is all good, all giving, all loving, he is all – so far nothing different from religion.  Said by those who attained. If I attain, I’ll s see; if not, I won’t, no matter how many times I read the book cover to cover.

Imagining that sensation is easy, I could imagine feeling that everything, absolutely everything around me in and out, in every multidimensional level, micro and macro there is the Love and Understanding and the Warm of the Creator’s bestowing; in the light and in the darkness, in the oxygen I breath, in the stars I see at night, in everything good that happens, that I receive, but also, in everything bad that happens… and that is the challenge if not the problem, to really feel it and not just imagine it and be delusional about it.

I just visualize that the creator is every cell, molecule, or atom in the universe moving around and creating what we sense as reality. It is a bit harder with attributing my thoughts as the Creator. Not because I don’t think that God is consciousness itself, but because I can’t imagine what thoughts are made of.

as i sit here trying to think of what it means to me, i’m reminded after a while that it’s like everything is calm in the world and it feels like being in Winter pyjamas, under a down comforter, snug and warm. but, upon seeing the quote, the first thing  coming up was my mind thinking it could be eyn od milvado from the biblical verse and then, the song by Avraham Fried (found it online and had a listen). tbh, before the “after a while” i felt a bit of a struggle to even conceptualize, as if i hadn’t enough mental energy to ‘merge’, so i’m grateful for this Preparation question, since it brought me to abandon my resistance…