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When I read the excerpt from “Attaining the Worlds Beyond”, I could understand the relationship between our perception of reward and punishment and the perception of the Creator in the world around us. It helped me see how one can’t exist without the other in our perception, nor should it. The quote from the Talmud really opened my eyes to this even more. It provides the information to us on how we should feel, and that the purpose of the world is for our growth and work in 3 lines.
I get this weird sensation whenever I read any of these books. I’m swimming in an ocean and it seems like I’m heading toward a particular direction or sensation, but then I get these subtle drops from the side. It’s like I sense all the ocean things and I’m loving that; I love that experience of being in it. But then I get almost like a faint scent of something from the periphery, and it just touches and dissolves in. Like someone put a drop of essential oil in the water.
Then when I think back later on what I read, it turns out all of it was about this unrelated stuff that kind of stealthily absorbed in from the side. It turns out the journey wasn’t the swim at all. It wasn’t getting to where I thought I was going. It was all about these seemingly unrelated things that slipped in where I wasn’t looking.
I was astonished on how we can be stuck in our thoughts and patterns, thereś so much more to explore. I lovede the text on “how to read” because it helps me personally because i normally read very fast and this helps me on a different way of learning. Overall being in it gave me warm feeling inside in my core…..i can explain it…but i felt it
Lesson 1 materials helped me re-set several of my perspectives on life. I appreciate how rational and simple the teaching are. One video has made a significant impact on me. In the video Tony Konec compares and explains the difference between Awakening and Spiritual Awakening. The core of my historical belief was “I and everyone else awaken individually, and at some point of awakening all of us become One.” Now, I see how irrational that is, and that it fails to discuss other details that are necessary to foster a Spiritual Awakening. As Tony’s words carried the truth to my ears, I felt it and I felt the heaviness of it. I felt the rationality of the explanation. I felt heaviness around the effort that it will take on my part to change. My myth of my awakening was being literally deconstructed in real time. No hero story for my ego. No zip zap magic to show off my talents. No petitions praying for God to change. No closing off from people. I felt silence in me. It was a big “oh oh,” for me. It was a gift of harsh reality, and it felt silencing. The other thing was, I felt my commitment, and with that came the feeling of the potential power of spiritual awakening. This was calming. As I write this, couple of days later after watching the video, I still feel that silence of that moment. I do not want to doubt, but I still have a bit of that in me. Am I seriously committed to this? This would mean letting go of my historical myths that have provided me with a level of protection, and got me to now (at least that is what I believed at that time). Am I seriously committed to this? The degree to which I comprehend the teachings, this is serious stuff. I cannot be half in, half out. That’s that.
I am looking forward to lesson 2.
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