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I feel like since I grew up in the church and been studying and searching for the Creator since I can remember. Even feel like I went through a state of giving up a few years back before I found kabbalah, that the thought of “falling into dispare” seems so far off. Like almost unattainable because I am basically learning to yearn for something that I’ve never had. How do I build this desire to want something I’ve never seen, felt or tasted?
For some reason I am finding it real difficult to pray for the friends. Not because of anything they did. But because I feel corporeal. So I feel like a poor man praying for the wealthy. If that makes sense…
So my question is, how do I pray for the friends? How can I build the desire to pray for them correctly? How should I start, like, build a habit, and then eventually it will be real?
Hence, when he climbs to the first floor, he has no desire to stay there. Instead, he wishes to quickly climb to the second, to the King Himself, for this is all he wants. However, he is told, “Without knowing the rules that abide on the first floor, you will certainly blemish the King’s honor. For this reason, you cannot hope to be able to climb to the second floor before you learn all that there is to learn on the first floor.”
Similarly, with love of friends, we heard that it was impossible to be rewarded with love of the Creator before one was rewarded with love of friends, as Rabbi Akiva said, “love thy friend as thyself is the great rule of the Torah.” Therefore, while engaging in love of friends, he is not considering love of friends as being valuable, but as redundant.
I chose this excerpt from Come unto Pharaoh 2. Because it shows how everything has a reason. Trying to skip the love of friends and go straight to the Creator would be a huge mistake, disaster, cause a catastrophic event just horrible. It’s like having a goal to be a surgeon but skipping med school and residency. What in the world would make me think I can just go straight to being a surgeon? (In this case straight to the Creator) like sending a child into a surgery room. I have no clue what I am doing! I have to appreciate even being being invited to attend such a gathering on the first floor, so when I make it to the surgery table (2nd floor) I would know how to handle the tools, (my new nature) and I won’t dishonor the King.
Gianni, asking you a question makes me think of life as a maze. but in this maze there is someone like you in every corner waiting to point people in the right direction. Thank you for your patience and everything that you do for us.
Thank you Gianni, sometimes these answers are hard to hear, but sometimes I feel like they need to be asked so I can get it out of my head. Receiving the answers kind of reminds me of emotional abusive relationships. Nothing I say is going to be right lol. But I guess that’s part of the process too.
