[Ricki]

I study full time at university and am struggling to keep up with the daily lessons. To date, I aim to devote my whole attention to a live session or recording. However, as pressure from school increases, I’m less able to tune in and keep up. Can you believe I’m almost at a point where i would be content to stall my own progress spiritually, if it meant that I could at minimum support my ten and fulfill my school obligations! But then striving in the work is one way that I participate in the society and strengthen the environment…. Since I’m sure that there are forces beyond my perception at work here, I’m not sure how to proceed.

My question is, if I can’t give undivided focus to a lesson from start to finish, would you recommend i still listen to it in the background? Even while doing something else like writing an assignment, or cleaning dishes?

Thanks in advance for your help

[Ricki]

Thank you Gianni! I greatly appreciate your guidance

[Ricki]

With regard to the only free choice we have which is the choice of environment, can our internal state such as emotions and thoughts be considered an environment as well?

It is known that we are influenced by the external environment, and this is a reason why immersing ourselves in the books, the group, the teacher, is vital to our continued development along the spiritual path. When a person goes out to work to make money he or she is influenced by this environment too but in an egoistic manner. What about when one is at home? She is not at work, she is by herself or with her family. Yes she can connect virtually to the kabbalistic environment, but the example i mean to illustrate to support the question is can we choose our internal environment, such as focusing on gratitude while i brush my teeth? I have learnt from past experiences and now days am much more grateful, and because, relative to my past, being grateful seems like an action i have learnt to do more often, it feels like a choice. And since just like the external environment can influence a person, their emotional state or quality of thoughts can also influence them.

I feel like I’m missing something here or have overlooked or forgotten some content from the lessons…. Please help me understand this distinction. Thank you for your time 🙂

[Ricki]

When reading kabbalistic texts sometimes I feel the words talking directly to me and about me. How do I check if this is a trick of my ego?

[Ricki]

What a relief! thank you from the bottom of my heart

[Ricki]

Thank you!

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