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Hi,
I just completed week 6 and am not sure, that I really grasped the teachings, specifically about everything coming from the Creator and seeing the Creator in all circumstances.
Maybe this example is best to ask, if I understood it correctly: 15 years ago (I was a church member) something happened that made me question everything and made me realize that I could no longer be part of a church. It even went so far, that I questioned my whole belief. I ended up leaving the church and „turning my back on God“. These last 15 years I did not actively seek Him, I did not search for „alternatives“, I never asked the Creator, if there was more to reality or deeper truths, which I could follow. Recently I have experienced an awakening, and also thanks to the Kabbalah teachings, I have reconnected to the Creator, in a depth I never dreamed possible. To be honest, I am regretting having „wasted“ these last 15 years, thinking that if I had not „let go“ so easily, the Creator would have led me on this path I am on now.
If I understand the week 6 teaching correctly, having regrets on the decision I took, I am in a way idolizing myself? The sin/mistkake is not rooted in my decision, rather in me shifting my focus away from the creator? Looking back now and feeling regret is wrong, as again it shifts the focus to me – another power/force – rather than seeking the Creator, in the knowledge that this came from Him? So basically I should not ask for forgiveness for having missed out these last 15 years, rather ask for forgiveness for not having seen Him in the „driver seat“ in all that happened? Does this sum it up correctly?
Oliver,
I read your story and it sounds like you were standing at a spiritual gas station for 15 years filling up the tank and once the tank reached its fill, meaning once you acquired enought discernments and experiences and trying this and that, then the next degree illuminated for you. Meaning it was always there, it was there 15 years ago and even before you were born, but before you had arms and legs and a brain, it was impossible to think about it, to open a book, etc.
So, yes you are correct in your line of thinking. And you will understand it more after you have even more experience.
Seth@KabU
Hello, I have a question regarding the purpose of reading Kabbalah texts is only to attract the Upper Light. Does that mean that even if I read and I don’t understand I am still connecting to the knowledge? Also can you please provide an example of a proper type of prayer?
Brenda,
The meaning of what you are saying is like with a child that is born into this world, they do not learn “intellectually”, but by being around the influence of the “upper ones” they develop, they learn to speak, to eat, etc, they don’t learn it because they “studied”.Speak to the Creator like your closest friend, your closest lover, the desire of your heart is a prayer.
If you are looking for texts to read while you do this, open Psalms or the Siddur, the order of prayers arranged by the Sages of the Great Assembly.
Seth@KabU
I reached the end of Kabbalah Revealed Part 1 with a pretty good understanding of some basics but, apparently, there’s a lab that goes with that.
No sooner did I enter Part 2 did I hit a couple of inconvenient setbacks that elicited a familiar response. Anxiety and a little fear over the outcome entered my mind and my body responded with that uneasy feeling; grasping for immediate ways out.
I didn’t feel the Creator. However, I forced my attention on the the idea the Creator sent this to me to show me where I stood and where I stood wasn’t quite as solid as I thought. The intellectual part was there, but not the conviction; the belief. So every time I felt doubt and insecurity. The setbacks actually began to resolve but the insight remained. I’m not going to get too comfortable with my progress on the material without my progress on the belief.
Am I getting this right?
Eugenio,
Well, if you are advancing, then you do reach the limit of the intellect.
The mind wants to know, “if I give you power and excitement to do this study, so what am I going to get out of it”.
And the thing we are working on attaining is higher than the mind, so we run into a problem.
The solution for this is that a time of ascent we need to prepare ourselves and then we can surf though the time of descent quickly and again rise to the next higher ascent.
Seth@KabUThe lingering question is, what is the light that one rejects?
If an adverse event comes our way, is that natural aversion defined as rejection of the the adversity because we don’t sense the Creator? Further, does light from the Creator come in the form of adversity and prosperity? Is it our understanding and response to either what we’re all working on?
Eugenio,
Let’s say on the outside nothing changes. For the sake of this exercise, let’s just say that. Sometimes the tide rises, sometimes the tide subsides, sometimes the sun is shining, sometimes its dark.
That’s the will to receive, that is matter, that is the stuff of creation.
Now in addition to that there is another calculation, who is sending the waves, who is moving the sun?
That is where the spiritual action happens.
They physical action happens in your body. If you someone is going to hit you, so you get out of the way or hit them back, that is physical. You don’t stand there “rejecting the light”. However after a time of preparation where you calibrate your inner life to the forces that are operating on you, then you can also calculate how to work with the One who sends everything to you.
Seth@KabU
@ Seth. I feel I have to explain a little further about my post. The rage and despair was not about me (although at times I have felt both in relation to myself) but about what I perceive in the world around me – especially in relation to cruelty to animals or the circumstances that people have to deal with. In my minds eye I can imagine a different way of being. I struggle to accept it, viewing it from my limited perspective. I do think separating my earthly life from my spiritual life is certainly a solid step to be working on. Thank you for your input
Charlene,
It is impossible to feel this now, that is clear, however if you pay attention to what the kabbalists are writing to us, they are saying that actually all of reality is my soul…your soul and for the time being you feel it as existing outside of you in four degrees: inanimate, vegatative, animate and speaking. And all we feel is a black point of self that is turned inwards and feels only itself. Through the process of advancement in the wisdom of kabbalah, we enlarge the circle around us to include more and more of reality…imagine like you are in the middle of an onion and there are layers around you and that is all of reality, starting with the smallest layer closest to you in the middle, as you go through the process of correction, that first layer is felt as part of your soul and not as “outside” of you anymore, and then the next outer circle feels as part of your soul and not outside of you anymore, until all of reality is felt as your soul, is felt as one, is felt as you and it all exists inside your “heart” and there is nothing that is outside, seperate, etc.In the meantime, all of these phenomenon that you feel as if they are outside of you is in order to give you the importance and energy to move, to acquire your soul.
The world is waiting for you,
Seth@KabU
I understand that all comes from and is of the Creator and that it’s all for our self correction but I find it overwhelming and struggle with the idea that we are caught in so much pain and hardship. I also understand that this is our own perception of the reality of the situation. Would you say that the way to overcome my raging/ despair would be to continue to hold faith – no matter what? I feel one cannot let go, not for a single minute.
Charlene,
We don’t know each other and I don’t know your psychological/emotional situation.
If your hand is being closed in a door and your asking, should I pray not to let go of the Creator? I’d say stop asking for spiritual advice and immediately take your hand out of the door, get some ice for your hand and then let’s talk about what is next.We are in a closed system that is advancing us all together towards an integral, whole, good, unbounded life.
If we are not moving forward of our own will, then we are pushed from behind. And also there is the soul, what is the role of this soul, what is it correcting, where did it incarnate, it is a complicated system.The first thing I would recommend is to open your notebook and write down what is your prayer, what is it that you want in your life.
Next, on a new page draw a horizontal line in the middle of the page to divide the page into an upper half and a lower half.
On the lower half is your earthly, material body/life. Write out the areas of your life that includes your physical health, your family, your money, your home, your hobbies, etc. and take inventory of them. If God forbid you have a physical health issue, then you need to do everything possible to deal with that in an earthly way. If you need to arrange finances, then you have to deal with that according to how those things are dealt with here on Earth.On the upper half of the page is your spiritual life, your aspiration for something out of this world, for something eternal, whole.
Write there what is your deepest desire.Being spiritual doesn’t mean “There is none else besides Him,” so that’s it, I sit and think that this all comes from Him and this is what He want for me and this is how it is and that somehow something is going to work out.
What does “There is none else besides Him” mean? That through me He acts, not that I don’t need to do everything.
I must do everything that is my hands to do and in every action that I perform, you will reach a state where he feels that the Creator clothes inside of you, but the physical actions remain the same actions.This is the correct approach. Do not put everything into the same bucket. Seperate the beastly, Earthly life from the inner spiritual world and a kabbalist lives in both worlds simultaneously.
Charlene, I am wishing you good luck and I hope to hear that things are stabalizing for you. You have found a profound spiritual wisdom. The deep desire should remain, that is the fuel, but there is no commandment to suffer.
Seth@KabU
“A person bears no responsibility for external or internal actions, including our doubts and descents”. I understand the context but it very hard to internalize. It is also hard to imagine the meaningful and appropriate internal process when it happens
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