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I really hope this course helps me get the answers I’ve been voraciously seeking to my questions. I feel almost certain there is more to this. My biggest question, though, remains: “Why the heck are we here so that we have to fight our way back up?” Once the pathology is understood, a remedy or even a cure may be found.
I was raised in the Christian religion, and I am still a participant in it. I even went to seminary and I work at a non-denominational/evangelical American church. I have always had a desire to see my community return to the Creator, but until recently I never felt free enough to explore the things I felt were so deeply broken in my tradition. I don’t hate my tradition, I sincerely love these people and I hope for us all to find freedom together, but I do get so frustrated with our lack of unity and the oppressive systems teaching worldviews that create division and smother love. I began to try to read Christian Scripture through different eyes – perhaps things aren’t as they “seem” to our interpretations; maybe there are spiritual truths behind these words that we don’t understand. My tradition tries to force almost an entirely materialistic (“literal”) interpretation onto Scriptures (except for where it’s inconvenient because they do still want to seem spiritual), which I have never felt right with (i.e. the entire universe was created 6,000 years ago). Anyone suggesting that maybe it’s talking more about spiritual reality than physical reality is accused of “overspiritualizing” to the point of heresy. I still have so much to learn, but what has blown my mind is that I am not alone and I am not the only one seeing this. I am no longer afraid of seeking to find the spiritual world in the Scriptures (and beyond our canon!!) because I can see that while this world exists and has its purposes, it is not the totality of existence, and that the upper world is so very, very real. We do not have to deny it out of fear or lack of knowledge. I long to remain in my tradition, with hopes that maybe someday I can figure out how to safely teach these ideas, like planting seeds, to those who might listen – to others who also feel this deep longing for greater answers. I hope I’ve said all of this in wisdom and love.
Well, I’m very sincerely delighted to be participating in this magnificent course, despite the language difficulties. I don’t speak English well; I’m from Angola and only speak Portuguese. But the little I’ve learned has left me very excited, knowing that I’ve discovered something that probably many generations of my lineage didn’t know. But what has left me most perplexed is knowing that I can connect with or reach the highest spiritual level even while in the physical world. That’s what I really want to learn. In fact, I want to become someone very spiritual. I want to have encounters with God, to connect with Him. I really want to know the truth that the Bible doesn’t reveal.
I really want to know about my life’s purpose, my mission, why I was born, where I really came from, and where I’m really going. I now believe that all answers have answers, and Kabbalah answers that. Please help me better understand earthly life and the spiritual world.
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