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It was a challenge to hear about the state of spirit we all want to achieve as our goal, because I was practising that in a part of the family and with friends. Sharing, supporting the others emotionally and morally, steping back letting the other in front, we were taught to do so, and it was even working with some and sometimes. But this was back in Romania and in the communism time. Through a difficult relationship with the mother I even was in the situation to become at least emotionally a mother for her (at that time with the goal to receive, of course), and that triggerts now a lot, because that was too much too early. I was a mother before I could be a woman. And I could only be a mother like a child could (and somehow I was led spiritually as I know today) So I was already “exercising” the state of Bina – and somehow still do. Plus I am still atracting people, who have unprocessed mother-issues, being a surface of projection for them, which is very awkward for me. The solution for me would be to defend and disolve that position in order to become free there. Kabbalah has surely another approach I wish I can deal with. So I was wondering, when you speak about absorbing desires, if I would be able to absorb pure desires, not trauma, and I felt a resistance against the idea of “absorbing”. You even say guys, sometimes is more mess. So then halleluya.
Which reality do you mean? The true or the false one? I wouldn’t say “feel” but “realize”. The “reality” reflects my state of mind and mood, on which I then react – this leads to a kuddelmuddel. Could we just turn off this kuddelmuddel called perception and turn on recognizing? I think it is called revelation too?
Hm. Within receiving I would say I have a wide range of free will. I can choose to hear to the voice of the ego or of the Creator, can choose the forms in which I create a day of my life. I even can choose how I am going to interpret or integrate an occurance. But I learn here, that this is all predetermined, while I’m feeling it’s my own will. No, I can’t exactly identify.
Honestly – I ask myself this too and I have no answer. From the point and state I am now – it is even impossible for me to live it. In order to be able to, I do need people who can connect or are connected with the Creator. And then I will be able to answer the question.
Recognizing myself in each and everyone and recognizing that their needs are my needs, finally that we are one and bestowing upon them means bestowing upon Creator.
This week the great challenge was to stop aspiring realizing in some points ‘I arrived. There is nothing to run to or away from’. And recognizing the gifts I’ve already gotten. Is like I am to small to contain them, I must make space for it. And I discovered that I don’t need to grow the soul, it is big enough, but to grow a healthy ego too. And so many other things. And that there is no good and evil, but there is true and false, as long as we experience ourselves in bodies having perception.
