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okay guys, I’m stuck here, for 3 weeks, or 4. “there is non else besides him” I can take. But that God the Creator contains bad, deadly, unbrotherly, destructive things that the ego has inside, I can’t take that. Religion is when one who feels himself initiated tells another, whom the initiate regards as below himself, which is probably of God. And that’s not true. God is only love, God is only good, God is only gentle, HE knows my kind, my essence, HE is in me and I in HIM. I stand NOW, HERE, as HIS CREATION, in front of HIM. HE knows everything about and from me, HE knows my soul, my spirit, my intentions. To believe that HE made the ego’s program, the ego’s thought system, hurts me deeply. No, God would never abuse or hurt me, not in the slightest, even in the worldly terms of the ego. HE only gives good things, even in world terms. The ego, that is, the fight and blight of God, arose because my soul had doubts that I forgot to laugh about. From the moment of doubt the world and the ego emerged. Right now I’m standing naked in front of him and I want to know the truth. Religion is when guys tell you something to believe without checking it, without experiencing it. And what I have to take accordingly. If you do so, then I’m ready to say – fuck yourself! you are from Satan! God would never hurt me because he can only love me because I am his creation! And he needs no physical world, only I do! So that I get a separate feeling of me and HIM! Both the world and the ego – are my miscreations!!! And I take responsibility for that because I created the ego and I created this dream -or feeling – of being separated from HIM and restricted! which is not true! It’s a dream, God didn’t smuggle the ego into the system, but I, the soul! In my need to separate myself from HIM because I could not endure unity! Because I wanted to overcome him, be over him! THOSE are the real reasons, the reasons of the ego that doubts whether there is a Son of God. Not HE, but I separated from HIM because, influenced by the ego, I couldn’t bear to be under HIM! And because I had no overview at all of myself! So I stand before HIM, I have to bear all the responsibility! I created the doubt, I created the ego against the Creator!, forgetting to laugh about it! This is what I feel and experience! And the doubt and the Ego are both an illusion! They are just a simulation ment to make the delusion within the illusion complete! The Ego in its power! No. Not God, not the Creator gives me pain and confusion, but the ego, which I have created against God! I still could not have expressed, what is there on the foundation of my being, but now would be the text too much. so I let it stop here, hoping you will understand also the emotional and deep message I am now sending. Recap: I am experincing separation, because I have made the Ego, in order to keep myself back and polar from/to the Creator. I am carring the whole reponsibility, and because of this, I have the power to change it. I am not gonna give me free to be abused by the Ego, who says “is everything from God”, I will never love a Over-Power, which wants to harm me, to control me, to abuse me in the Name ofe God! Is time to say the truth. That way it popps out!. Savvy!?
Religion is the conditions, rules and rituals man has made in the Name of God while abuzing power consealing Him. Is based on receiving and thus on passion.
I’m studying in order to see the reality clearly and to be able to only serve the plan, knowing concretly what I have to do here on earth and in which form I can accomplish what I have to do. In order to floating with the godly flow!
This is peace. I don’t know why I often confuse freedom with peace in english. Interessting. In Freedom are no boundaries which constrain. There is allowance and influence power. One can choose sth by the free will, because he allows all posibilities to be posible. That means he drops all condamnations and resistance to anything
Freedom is the absence of fight, absence of resistance. There is a ground of total acceptance of all that ist and how it is. And because of this acceptance, there is no will to change what is, there is only the will of so-being. There is trust. Acceptance and the absence of threat. One can not acquire it, but discover it allowing himself to feel it by letting resistance and war fall. Acquiring is an act of “want to have”, what is same as fight. One can experience it by generating it.
“It is the feminine force, that would let me die, and the masculine one that wouldn’t no matter what.” – This thought just came to me saying “sharing”.
You know, you say so lightly “is a preparation” – and this takes the whole power out of me for years! And it is like a loop, can’t ovecome that point. What you say in a sentence is a process, is the experienced and felt experience, and it feels like death, because the me, the ego disappears. Although your structure and guidance fits to mine, in my experience as I am processing I see, feel and experience things more energeticaly and emotionaly, kind of my-way, so I sometimes I describe things from an emotional perpective, and dynamics of things. I am at a point where I feel I need a group of women, we go through in our way, you know, and there is so much need for expression, even creatively.
I even sense that I don’t want to make a step further alone, but I need to make it. But not alone.
Anyway, there is a trigger point: I am thought of the Creator, I am Love of Love and because I am like Him I have the power to create, and because we are connected I always receive what the Creator wants to bestowl and I use this to creating my own creation, so I give like I receive. It was not the Creator, who separated, for he only expands, but me, by puting the veils (managed by the ego) on the Truth pretending it is not there, and now I am playing the being-separated-from-Creator-play, playing being God within my creation. Because I wanted to consciously chose Him, consciously make every step of he path leading me Home. Do I really am oposite to Him?
