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Thank you, analogies help me understand things better. I just see myself both in the spiritual environment and everyday life, and the lines are blurry, I am still mixing up these environments. I am working on this to the best of my abilities, mostly just watching my feelings and where are they leading me.
Oh, how much I wish I knew what it means! I mean it! I’m craving it and hurts I can not even answer this Q.
I am puzzled by the fact, that we, created beings have to correct the creation of our Creator! I am looking forward for what feels like impossible at this early stage of the study, as there is so much confusion! If I wouldn’t be fully aware of my heart’s desire to bond with the Creator, I might just be a mentally ill person going into a lock down facility; sure this is out of reason and logic, yet these faculties in me are craving sooooooo badly to know, feel, sense, understand the Creator!
Can I please have more explanation about the practical tip “try and let the environment influence you”? I thought we are influenced by it from default, what else can I try and let?
I feel like more I learn less I know, ughhhhh, and more confusing and chaotic my life gets, and my heart keeps breaking over and over … oh wait, that my be the whole point!!! Is the heart break how we open the point in the heart?. I know, believe and have faith in, that all good and bad comes from the Creator, but it just dawned on me now that when I feel my heart is breaking is the moment when I’m growing “the point in the heart” in myself! I just have to cling to this AHA moment for now and go from there … more clarity is welcomed down the road! This is a glimps of feeling, truly feeling the goodness behind the “bad”.
It is hard to clarify “the goal” as there are so many goals I would like to achive and as a biginner I have a hard time navigating my own, Creator given pleasure seeking nature; it is tricky as when I feel I am not doing somthingfor my own benefit, and I just sit with it and observe it ( yes, I do analize my thought and actions and Q them, even thought my intention is set not to benefit my own, personal disire only) it is revealed to me that I did it for my own benefit after all … then I feel like a fool. My goal, at this point I guess, is to be able to clarify my intention in every thought and action that I am doing it for the benefit of the whole, to receive the reforming light in a way that I have the ability to give, and give, and give without running out of the ability to give … also be able to know where/whom to give in this world that the act of giving doesn’t become a giving because of weakness (ex. being manipulated and I “give” not noticing I am giving to a wrong case) … I am having hard time to put my goal in words, but it is crystal clear that I desire to clarify it until I can sense the Creator without any doubt.
