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I hope really to start experiencing fundamental inner change that moves this one in the right direction.
What I’ve learned all tends to blur together. I loved the last course and the ones prior and hope to learn and have opportunity to practice the actual practices very soon!
I guess I forgot to fill in the “course reflection” in this section which means I can’t get into The Kabbalah Experience until I do. I can’t now remember exactly what this section was about, but I know that I’ve listened raptly to all of the lessons here and in other sections. I’m very excited to anticipate that I’ll have a spiritual path which combines inner work with becoming of true use in the world, and am really hoping that the path works in the way that the inspiring talks and books say it does. About myself: I’ve learned that I’m a skeptic here, but a hopeful one. (Sorry – I’m old and have burned out or hit walls before in several spiritual paths which I was really inspired by, in the beginnings.)  I wish for us all complete spiritual attainment.
I loved these classes very much! But I’m dreading that the actual practice won’t work for me. I studied online with Bnai Baruch 10 years ago for nearly 2 years, then gave up because the women’s group I got into (not video back then, only chat, if I recall) seemed so underwhelming. I’m still in a snit about what looks like sexism in the lineage. I get worried when I read or hear that we are not supposed to share our progress with each other. If the groups are only reading together (as were back then, at least as far as I got) or talking about mental level things, I can’t imagine that they’ll work for me. But – of course I’m looking forward to trying! The aspirations are so inspiring, I hope they can really come true for a plain old ordinary white American Jewess (me) who is seriously committed to trying very hard here!
