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what most inspired me is that through torah and mitszvot one day i will reach equivalence and be able to bestow to my creator which is everyething around me. what i learned not is that i am a slave literally no questions asked to my ego and it is trully a force to be reckoned with yet with Him all is possible so one day i will leave egypt. And for my fellow students i wish that we take up this work even egotistacally as well meaning we act like we have reached there already and choose bestowal(even though at the moment we dont have it we choose the fake bestowal that our ego tells us at the moment) and pick up works that benifit the society like teaching, healthcare, charity and the kind so when we reach there we wont feel like we got lishma so easily.
i can not do anything here that in actuality make me act mutually but I can toil and work from below so that He sees how I’m at least egotistically trying to cling and long for him so he can shorten the time for my correction so I can truly start loving other even for the smallest bit.
I pray people don’t have to take the long suffering path other than that at the end I know everyone will reach home(equivalence of form).
I want to be able to love that penguin in Antarctica that’s now struggling to go up that hill let alone human beings.
im here so I can let go of the devious ego which has been taunting me and taking away everything and every understanding that I get and using it against me, im still under control and its getting worse everyday and I understand that this is good but it means i can overcome it but I also want to know how to ask Him sincerely to override my ego ..I also want to find the middle ground where im not only going to Him for help for my ego since at the end of the day He has a reason for it and He made it but it really sucks that I can see that im just a slave and I cant do much about it and I still have to love it or remove it …but i really want lishma and it seems millions miles away honestly its alot of things I want lol …see its still “I want”
Blessed love my lords, pray all is well and royal. My name is Bamlak, a middle school teacher, age 25, coach sports and tutor kids. Been blessed with kabbalah a while now just here to expand my group and connect with you all and also selfishly here get anything I might have missed on the lonely personal journey been took.
