[Tsembalami]

ngibonga kakhulu.

thank you

[Tsembalami]

is the secret of the torah referring to the act of love making?
by that eye mean sex
is it?
for while the instructor: tony was delivering the lesson
eye received a revelation if eye may put it that way
that the act of sexual intercourse is very much what he was referring to as the secrets of the torah
but then again eye may be misled

eye have an inclination that as human we fear the most fundamental and beautiful parts of ourselves
like being naked
we cover ourselves with clothes out of shame
this shame is not natural
eye have not received the fullness of it
but my eyes are starting to see that there are thing in plain sight that are quite deep
my language “siswati” is like hebrew
it puts a lot of these things and words into perspective
and reveals deeper meaning
english is the fruit of lies
there is no other way to put it
it does not have the capacity to reveal the hidden mysteries of life
for it is not of truth
although eye do not know deeply about these things
yet daily eye am moved to be persuaded that there is something deeper in the simple

lastly:
this is a question
• is the earthly sanctuary a symbol for the female reproductive organ
eye say so because of the many similarities
some may not see this because as humans we have only seen the vulgar in what we carry
and ultimately who we are
but eye see nothing wrong with the female vagina
it is good
only our innerstanding of it
that needs correction
am eye misled or is there a connection?

[Tsembalami]

eye had a dream that keeps troubling me.
may eye retell it
perhaps it is related to the wisdom of kabbalah.

dream:
eye was in a place that had a few people in attendance.
eye remember the form of my mother teaching a class.
then eye remember getting into an arguement with her.
she threw something at me and it landed on my head.
this angered me and eye decided to retaliate.

when eye attempted to do so.
as eye got closer to her
her form changed into the form of a man.
the man was topless yet also vaguely covered in the lower half of his body
he had confidence and was very handsome
he was quite tall
like a giant
yet also within view
his legs seemed not be human yet also am uncertain of this
but all eye remember is that eye tried to throw something at this creature

but as soon as eye did that
its like he waved a hand and i slid off the surface of a very tall place (building)
eye slipped off this place
only then did it dawn on me that this place was somewhat up somewhere eye dont know
but eye slid and as eye looked down
there was this vast darkness that scared me to my core
eye didn’t want to fall
eye couldn’t hold on
eye fell

and in that very moment eye wanted to fight the fall
it was scary to see it end like that
eye was not ready
yet in that very moment eye realised how final that fall was
and how helpless and powerless eye was towards it
immediately as eye fell eye gave in
and said “oh well, there is nothing eye can do now at this point, only to let it happen”
as soon as eye uttered those words
there was this great blanket of beauty
its like something just said “eye was waiting for you to say that”
and it caught me and eye cried so hard
there was this pulling effect on my belly button
it was somewhat painful but not in a paining way
yet equally soothing
eye was so glad eye didn’t fight the fall
because that feeling was so beautiful

and next frame was me falling and in the distance eye saw what seemed like buildings
there was still a great mist of darkness
the building were rough images eye was seeing
eye continued to fall
yet still being held warmly
and then eye reached what felt like the ground
but it was dark soil (ground)
like filled with carbon or charcoal
then immediately there was another feeling of “oh that must have been how eye fell”
its as if eye knew it
it was as if eye was reliving something
there was this inner knowing
eye am not saying this was “the fall” or 125 steps down
eye do not know these things really
it was just a feeling of knowing “this must have been how eye fell” from a place up in the clouds that was made of glass yet was also hidden

its like there is something up there in the clouds
although something advanced is keeping it hidden

eye did these kabbalah studies back in 2024
and it was the first thing eye could reason with
was that a real thing?
as far as eye know now
the creator is “truth”
and “lies” are what keeps it hidden from us
the snake is “the spinal cord” and it talks to us through thoughts — they are not ours
eye know that lies kill
yet truth gives (life endlessly)

any assistance would be greatly appreciated in helping me innerstand the meaning of this dream
eye would love nothing more than to be a kabbalist someday
thank you

[Tsembalami]

That I cannot do this on my own. I wish to know plainly what is “the group”, I don’t seem to fully grasp this concept. And are there any students of the Kabbalah you know of that are in my country Eswatini (formerly known as Swaziland)?

 

I would greatly appreciate that. Otherwise I don’t know much, but I am hopeful every time I’m plugged into this environment. It makes the journey feel easier.

 

For my fellow students, I wish them eternal Bliss.

[Tsembalami]

Dilemmas would be extinct

[Tsembalami]

I’m not so sure. But it’s a necessary step towards my own correction. I believe by others knowing the wisdom, they help add to the total collective that will have points in the heart.

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