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Thanks for your answer.
A “dream job” would not count as “necessity” for me, but I will wait for the advanced semesters for any practical applications.
Hey Eliyahu 🙂
You always seem very angry in your comments throughout the forums. I am very angry sometimes too.
However, often I read something that suddenly softens my heart again. Perhaps the following quote from this week’s Recommended Reading material can soften your heart a bit? Of course, if you don’t want that, don’t read it.
In any case, I am looking forward to getting to know you more in the coming weeks/months.
The quote is from “Kabbalah for the Student -> Everything is Evaluated not by its Appearance at a Given Moment, but According to its Measure of Development”:
Everything in reality, good and bad, and even the most harmful in the world, has a right to exist and should not be eradicated from the world and destroyed. We must only mend and reform it because any observation of the work of Creation is enough to teach us about the greatness and perfection of its Operator and Creator. Therefore, we must understand and be very careful when casting a flaw in any item of Creation, saying it is redundant and superfluous, as that would be slander about its Operator.
It is common knowledge that the Creator did not complete Creation when He created it. And we can see in every corner of reality, in the general and in the particular, that it abides by laws of gradual development, from absence to completion of growth. For this reason, when the fruit tastes bitter at the beginning of this growth, it is not considered a flaw in the fruit, since we all know the reason: fruit has not yet completed its development.
And so it is in every element of reality: when some element appears bad and harmful to us, it is but a self-testimony of that element; that it is still in the transition phase — in the process of its development. Hence, we cannot decide that it is bad and it is not wise for us to cast a flaw in it.
Is it true that by living in spiritual perception one will feel the desires of others as one’s own and that one can ONLY ever fulfill one’s own desires inside others?
Meaning, if I have the opportunity for my dream job, I would actually pray for others to get this dream job instead of me?
And even further, I would aim to fulfill my own desires, but only because then others can feel my fulfillment as their own?
Meaning, I would make sure that getting my dream job would bring fulfillment to others and I would only accept this dream job on the condition that others are actually happy for me?
This is the second question of a pair of questions. I will not read the answers to the first question, but it is a prerequisite for this question. Here is the link to the first question: https://kabuconnect.com/forums/topic/ask-anything-2/#post-190686
My second question is as follows:
By posting a question like the first question and deciding not to read the answers because my desire should be fulfilled inside the others and not inside of me, am I on the right track? Am I helping people or am I hurting them? Am I confused already or am I starting to correct my desires (as much as I can at this moment in time)?
Also, should I refrain from any more such posts because it is „too much to handle for somebody just starting out on this path“? I seem to have no idea how to conduct myself properly so I will help the people around them instead of hurting them.
I have a question regarding „breaking through to the spiritual world“.
First, I want to set my intentions straight. Since I am not yet in the Graduate Environment, I can only try to piece together what I have learned so far. My egoistic desire is „desiring to know whether a certain experience would be considered ‘breaking through to the spiritual world’ by Kabbalists“. Now, if I try to invert that desire into its altruistic form, I will post my question, so that others can know the answers to it. Additionally, I will not read the answers because I want to give my fellow students the opportunity to know whether my experience was indeed ‘breaking through to the spiritual world’ and if it was, then to give them the joy of knowing that it only seems scary from the egoistic perspective, but that it is actually really beautiful.
The Experience:
I had quit my job and did not know how to pay my bills, what job the Creator wants me to be in etc. I was really scared about becoming homeless, but I figured that if the Creator wants me to become homeless, then He has a good reason for it. Also, I figured, if He wants me to become homeless, then it can’t hurt to enjoy at least a last good meal in a restaurant.
So, I went to a nearby restaurant, purchased a good meal and sat down to enjoy it in the garden outside of the restaurant.
On the opposite side of the street, I saw a beautiful girl in front of a church door. She seemed homeless and she seemed to be immersed in an intense prayer. It felt like she prayed to Mother Mary or some comparable female saint.
I could see that she had created a strong energy field around her because all the people that were passing were suddenly thrown out of their monotony, looked at her irritated and then crossed to the other side of the street.
From experience I knew that such a strong energy field can only be created, if the person has been praying without ceasing and with utmost intensity from the bottom of their heart for quite a while.
Suddenly I felt that the energy of her prayers shifted towards me. Suddenly her prayers seemed to pull me. I then thought that I cannot ignore even a single person that prays so intensely and truly from the bottom of their heart.
I looked in my wallet and found 10 Euros. „At least I can give her the 10 Euros“, I thought.
I then grew restless and worried that she would „give up at this crucial moment“. So, I aborted my meal, paid in a hurry and went straight to her.
On the way to her I grew incredibly scared. „It’s just a human connection“, I thought to myself, „no need to protect myself from human connections. After all, haven’t I been praying for this all the time?“
When I approached her, I did not know what to say, so I just stood a meter in front of her until she noticed my presence and opened her eyes. In this moment the sun came out and shone onto my back and onto her face.
I handed her the 10 Euros, her eyes grew wide and she stumbled with a foreign accent: „Thank you“.
In this moment I saw God. Later I became convinced that I saw God through her that day and that she must have also seen God through me that day.
I recoiled in horror and basically ran away. Then I prayed in my thoughts: „I had to give the 10 Euros to her. How could I not, if you have given me so much in my life?“ and I started crying.
I reflected on this experience for a couple of days. Why did I suddenly see God? What happened?
Eventually, I came to the conclusion that the act of giving my 10 Euros to her came from a pure giving intention. Yes, I contemplated whether I would go up to her because I was so scared, but the intention behind the act itself was still pure.
Then, I felt that it is impossible to arrive at that state again by my own efforts. After all, I would just be doing it, so that I can experience this beautiful thing again. How could I not want that?
Anyway, if this experience was indeed pure and considered „breaking through to the spiritual world“ (even if just for a few seconds) by Kabbalists, please tell my fellow students, so they can get a clearer picture of what it means to „feel yourself outside yourself“.
For me at least, posting this question feels like I can finally leave this „petty little contracted thing called ego“ inside of me behind. I do not have to worry about it so much anymore. Much less do I have to worry about trying to somehow satisfy or fill it. It is a pointless task. Let’s just leave it behind (said the ego.)
However, I do need to know whether I am on the right path here and doing something good for my fellow students or whether I am trying to „feed steak to a baby because I like steak so much“ and therefore actually hurting them. Therefore, I will post a second question asking whether I should continue like this or whether I am already getting confused and straying from the path. Reading the answers to that second question will be feeding my ego, but I still have to do it. God forbid that I hurt other people by trying to help them.
