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Thank you Gianni. I am so grateful to be here, to have learned, and felt, as the point in my heart has grown. I am different from the person I was when I first came here and my prayer is truly in my heart, mostly without words, and mostly for my family, my friends on the groups I manage online, a prayer for strength to deal with it and get through it. And although I am afraid I somehow feel that ‘this time’ will be different because of the love of the Creator. And because of the group, even though I don’t really have one I do have the other students, and the instructors, and my books. So many books. A prayer for my strength and ability to come back to the Creator in your minyon would be welcome. I have procrastinated this surgery for a long time but I must do it. I will tell you a funny story. I had already started KabU and had just gone through a beginning lesson about losing your ego. That night while I was flossing my teeth the floss went right through the cemented bridge on both sides and down it went into the sink. I was toothless. I looked in the mirror and laughed. Toothless old hag! I stood there with a funny grin and said my thanks to the Creator for confirming my lesson. My heart is with Kabbalah. My heart is here.
So, I just want to retract this request as I just realized that the format on Saturday is not what I had anticipated.
I have a very personal question regarding my prayer. I do not usually share personal issues but I wondered if my request is something that can be included with our upcoming Saturday live session, or perhaps not. This is very hard for me to ask in public but I will ask anyway.
Next week I will have oral surgery that will be somewhat extensive and very painful. Because I am unable to take medications I expect it will be severe pain for a while. And I have an underlying immune condition (fungal-coccidiomycosis) that can potentially kick in and make me very ill for 6 months or more and even be life-threatening at my age now. This is all due to a genetic dental problem from birth. I will do everything I can, but the pain will still be severe and the stress, physically and mentally, is an opportunity for the fungal meningitis to reappear.
I have been praying, pleading for help to get through it so I may take care of my home, my family of 7 rescue dogs, my husband, and my studies here. I am watching Gil speak of how illness can be helped with the right prayer. My surgery is on the 25th. I do not know if I will be able to finish week 5 and move forward but I must do this. I am so embarrassed to even ask, but I am asking. Is this a prayer that can be answered with my effort and my need, or is it just a this-life problem I was given and so must accept whatever happens? Thank you for an honest answer Gianni. I hope to make it on Saturday, but not with a camera as I am mostly toothless now and my ego is not happy. Thank you.
Because each of us is a spark of the original soul it becomes a connection to the whole of Adam HaRishon when we connect to another spark, another person with the point in the heart working on this path. We bring with us the light we already have from the work we have done and join it to the light of another when we help others. In this way the light increases for both of us as we connect to each other with the same intention of spiritual growth.
Hello Brad. In my current class we are being taught how a bit of disparity in the discourse is not only expected when you graduate to the group of 10, but it’s also very helpful as a means of growth. Ascents and descents. Don’t get complacent in the ascent and grow when the descents present. Love your friend as yourself is the lesson.
So I am going to let my mother instinct take rein here (since I’m old enough to do that) and say that your post appears to me as a bit of egoistic need and a kinder approach might be considered. Why don’t you just repost your questions with a simple note that you are reposting as they may have been missed.
Perhaps I am mistaken, but perhaps others got the same feeling as I did and my comment is only meant for spiritual growth.
Our connection is fortified when it remains in our consciousness in all that we do. Meaning each thought and act become a means to please the Creator. The transformative influence is amplified when we can share with others who have the point in the heart open, and when alone by listening to the instructors, and especially by reading the books written by, and for, Kabbalists.
