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My goal is to ascend the Reshimot of past incarnations and make the corrections needed to attain Gmar Tikkun in this lifetime as taught through Kabbalah.
It was a happy revelation to learn that what I thought were my poor choices in the past were not really my own free choices. It was only when the point in the heart was opened that I had the free will to choose the environment, the teachers, people, books that were the end goal of the life journey. Everything else before that were gifts given by the Creator to show me what needed correction, and finally how to work on it before this lifetime was over.
I think the point in my heart had been opened for a while as I explored the various spiritual opportunities and realized with each one that they weren’t ‘enough.’ When I finally begged the Creator to please show me the path I found myself at KabU. How grateful I am to be here.
Thank you Albert. I have read this page before but when you posted I started to feel bad, that maybe I was deluding myself. I had felt that the Creator actually had given me quite the gift in this incarnation, all the obstacles presented now seeming more like steps to get here. This life was filled with nothing but obstacles except for a spiritual essence that ran through it, just not clear how to use it or what to gain. Finding myself here seemed to give that clarity, and I have been joyful and determined. And feeling the touch of the Creator sometimes too. Feeling a little ascension across the barrier sometimes. Until I read how it wasn’t enough. I expect the Creator gave me this lesson too, as there is None Besides Him. And I will continue now, with Joy. Thank you. I needed that.
HI Albert. In your response below to Nick you say that being virtual 100% is not enough. Where I live there are no Bnei Baruch groups, just one of those Kabbalah Centers, which after studying their material I knew wasn’t correct for me. Nor am I able to travel. I did join the online zoom session for the first time last week and it was a good feeling to be among others on this path even virtually. I walked away elated. But that will likely be the extent of my participation with others.
I am a senior, likely one of the oldest people newly registered here, and I feel strongly that I am able to ascend and attain, that I can already feel progress in that direction. And I have long known that I am attuned to the spiritual environment and past incarnations. But your comment about this not being enough goes along with Rav Laitman’s comment on a vid I watched saying it will take 20-30 years of study concerns me just a bit. I do not have 20-30 years left in this incarnation and I’m not traveling anywhere other than spiritually.
I believe that everyone is at a different stage, different level in their ascent back up the ladder, even if they are unaware that there even is a ladder. And I believe that everyone must travel the road given by the Creator, as that is the correct path for each individual. My desire is strong, my intention equal. I do not want to feel that I will miss my mark as they say, because I am here so late in this lifetime and because my path is truly deep within myself.
Freedom is when you are living in harmony with all of nature. The Reforming Light brings you out of your personal egoistic desires and leaves you with the impression of Love in the Point in your heart so that your desire to receive becomes the intention of bestowal to all forms of nature.
This has been an important week for me. Perhaps these things were building, perhaps the lessons triggered their release. Four things stand out from Week 1 of Part 2.
1. There is None Besides Him, and He resides in my own heart. The relationship I have growing in the Point in my Heart with the Creator consumes all my desire.
2. It is not important how I view other people, those not on my path. Everyone must travel their own journey, and time will take them where they are supposed to go. Focusing on my own journey is what matters now. The rest will fall into place. I can love all of them, for what they are and for who they will be eventually. We are all One.
3. What happened in the past was neither negative or detrimental to anyone, even though it appeared that way. No time or journey was wasted. I searched for a long time for Spirituality, all manner of divinity and even Kabbalah. When I reached the time of true hatred of the egoistic ways of my youth and adult life and truly opened my heart and begged the Creator to forgive me and show me the way to fix these things, I found KabU. They say, When the student is ready the teacher appears. Now I realize how blessed I am, to have been given these strong challenges that I have overcome in my heart. I do feel chosen, and appreciative of the great Joy that comes into my being every so often now.
4. The importance of being with others who are on the same path is starting to sink in. Finally I have participated in the Sunday Zoom session, and I walked away with such a feeling of connection, a feeling of Light that opened in my soul. I feel that connection here in online class and I crave my books as they return the same feeling, but being in that meeting has changed me.
Thank you everyone, instructors and students alike.
