[Terra]

I feel like I am absorbing so much wisdom up through this course. I am looking forward to exploring the implementation through a workshop and gathering, although it is often hard to find a time that works across all time zones and schedules. I am curious to see how that hurdle is overcome.

[Terra]

People would strive to help each other collectively instead of competing against each other. The news would report on our great successes instead of crime, war and famine.

[Terra]

My role is to participate with all of my desire so that I can connect with others doing the same.

[Terra]

I apologize for posting off topic here but I’m unable to access the other Week 2 forums (a black pop-up box appears when I click on the links at the end of the lesson material).

A few months ago, I ended a seven-year relationship with someone who exhibits narcissistic traits. I stayed a long time because I thought he behaved toward me in these negative ways (lack of emotional empathy, manipulative control and coercion) because I needed to learn how to put my personal needs or ego aside and be more giving of myself and understanding of his needs. I feel that practice is a big part of the practical teachings of Kabbalah.

Since I have left, I can identify the ways this person and myself have been hurt as children/young adults, leading to the way we behave toward each other and others as an adult. So I can empathize with their feelings and behaviors but at the same time, I believe I need to uphold my boundaries of not being in a romantic relationship with them because those actions are harmful to me. Still, I do have some guilt around asserting my needs.

Although we speak a lot about correcting our egoistic desires and moving toward being altruistic, is part of the reason we will be doing this in carefully selected “lab groups” because we need to do this work with others who have an awakened point in the heart and have progressed in the coursework, vs those who perhaps are not ready to do the self-reflecting work necessary for this shift to occur?

I am looking forward to learning more about how being altruistic may not mean being submissive or dismissive of our own needs and would love to hear some insights from instructors or other students on this.

[Terra]

Thank you for posting this. I agree with your explanation and am starting to “feel” the truth of it.

[Terra]

I want to learn and grow under the influence of the light, in connection with other students of Kabbalah. I’ve been studying the theoretical for years now and wish to apply practices to my life on a daily basis.

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