[Vince]

I’m extremely afraid of entering a descent for an extended period of time. Is constantly asking the Creator throughout the day in my thoughts a good way of getting out of a descent faster ?

Thanks in advance

[Vince]

Is it wrong to be in joy that the shattering happened ?

Should I pray to the Creator for clarity (?) Because I do not want to relate the separation of the Shechina to myself or fool myself.

Thanks, Gianni

[Vince]

If even the smallest atoms are constantly moving on the still level, does that mean that even this carbon experience/5 senses is also depiction from our perception as when Baal HaSulam writes about the hind brain?

In Tikkun Olam will the carbon projection of this world finally end as well ?

In Shamati No.1 when it speaks of rejections he experienced, does this also refer to all the corporeal experiences (reshimo) and research into science I did to get finally make it to Kabbalah ?

Thanks in advance as always, appreciate it

[Vince]

Thanks in advance for taking time to read my question. This guidance is greatly appreciated as in the future I hope to help others to stay focused from what I’ve learned, especially since the “Heaviness” in the work also seems to come and go (as always expected of course)

At the beginning of the year the Creator flipped my entire life upside down. The event however provided me with what I had been searching for my entire life (Bnei Baruch). I understand that the Creator sends us desires and thoughts especially in situations like mine where I’m studying whilst in this aching pain in my heart. Some days it leaves and then it will come back again. Its now obvious He’s trying to show me something on top of letting me know i should fear not being like Him more than any corporeal event that’s taken place in my life. In order to measure my fear against the fear of learning how to bestow. I’ve been reading and watch morning lessons as much as I can to try and find clues as to what he’s trying to show me with this crisis I endured and to correct myself.

So my question is, since I don’t have a 10 yet (I still go to every lesson in Grad env. I can and think of the others there) while im studying; how do i try and find through the text, Like Shamati for instance, what the creator is trying to get me to see (cause sometimes the pain is unbearable but I keep studying)?? 

 

[Vince]

Learned that I cant do anything alone to correct myself, also learned that others are my responsibility which is inspirational because I used to feel the opposite about people. What I learned about myself is that the closer I get to finishing  the more the game of  my ego starts trying to pull and distract me me in other directions etc. Its starting to feel like theres a real fight now

[Vince]

If the enviornment that influences me for the importance of the adhesion, the groupo directs me in the right direction which I cant do by myself (a problem Ive always had). Only the friends can show me my status, my connection to them. Externality with the group is they key to the lock. We become a network like Gilad said and to follow the set laws

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