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I am very much confused at this point. I dont judge it. It is what it is and I trust it is the way. I walk away and the second I do- I feel I have to come back, so I have some inner force pulling me into studying and understanding, into the process whatever it is..at this point I dont want to make any statements, I dont want to guess or assume anything, I just sense this inner calling I have to follow even though I feel everything is going apart regardless my ways of understanding life. As Tony advised me on Monday – wake up and fall asleep knowing it is all creator, go to sleep and ask for keeping you in this knowing.
Hi, I’m Vonka from USA, I’m here and very confused while all I’ve ever believed is shaken again in my life, but I feel there is only one way to go- forward… I’m opened and curious following some strength force…
I know it can be frustrating, and maybe there are other ways, have you consider using chat gpt or grok to translate things? there are free versions in case you cannot afford that, and you can play short parts of the videos to AI partially and get translations. You can even be the one who will translate Kaballah videos and text to others using AI. I believe if you want something very much the way will be revealed 😊
it so changes everything, doesnt it?:) Ive learned it before Kabbalah, and now it just gets deeper and deeper, there is truly nobody to judge by self..
I wanted to add a correction to my previous introduction: I wrote the word “earn,” but what I really meant was “learn.” And since I can’t edit, I’ll just continue here and share a little experience from my childhood.
I’ve always been a deep thinker. I even remember clearly the moment when this awareness woke up in me — I was 5 years old, playing with other kids, when suddenly I stopped. Out of nowhere this thought came: I am. I began repeating it over and over, tasting its meaning.
When I was 10, I had another experience. I was sitting on a chair, and I caught myself wondering: what is deciding that I am still sitting, and what is deciding that I will stand up? I froze there, almost unable to make the decision, like I was observing reality waiting to see what would happen next. I don’t remember how it ended, but I think it was interrupted by my father suddenly showing up at the house (he had left us before, so it was unusual to see him). He gave me a small book called Teoria Wiru (in English: The Theory of Spin). This was before the internet, before any real access to information about quantum physics. The book described spins — mini tornados of energy, moving at the speed of light, making themselves visible to the human eye. Years later I asked my father about it, but he said he never gave me that book. I remember passing it to my brother, but he says he never received it from me. Somehow the whole book feels like it appeared and disappeared mysteriously, as if outside of time. And now, in my life today, I feel something very similar to that moment on the chair when I was 10. Stuck. Almost unable to make the next move. It’s uncomfortable, and it feels like a loop — as though time doesn’t exist, and I never truly stood up from that chair. As though I am still sitting there, with those thoughts, and here I am now, writing this from that same place.
I really struggle with defining what is it that i really want to pursue in life, I am torn between my two big desires to the degree that I stopped doing anything, I feel frozen, paralyzed, Its like a person who wants to eat and drink with such the same strength of desire that it cancels both and person is dying from not eating and drinking. It is me now, I wish to help myself to understand why it is happening and how to move my train some direction or earn how to do nothing and enjoy it as well:) kidding;/
