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Hi Gianni,
So it seems one of my ten members went behind my back to try and get the ten to kick me out of the ten over a disagreement. It makes me feel very insecure in the ten. What if I am here for ten years and a month away from lishma and someone gets a bug up their but and tries to get me out of the ten and it works? Hardly an experience that gives me more confidence towards the goal. How should I look at this?
Hi Todd,
I don’t know the specific circumstances but generally we don’t expel members of a ten unless they are repeatedly breaking the rules of our society, and after mediation it’s clear that they are intent on disturbing the spiritual work of our other friends, and unwilling to consider that their approach is at odds with the teachings of Rabash, Rav, Baal HaSulam.
How to look at it? I would first, if it was me, consider how I may have been mistaken or should change, while also checking with the Arvut Team to mediate. They are very experienced friends with expertise in this, and you can trust their guidance.
Hi Gianni,
Seems like there is an excessive amount of an emphasis on feeling good in my ten. I know that Rabash says you want to give the friends good spirits. This seems more like a popularity thing we got going on than doing spiritual work. It’s like, this friend agrees with me so we have an alliance, or me and this friend get along so we will have a back and forth about how much we like each other and so on. It seems on one hand like a mutual admiration society first and foremost, where it is all about popularity and who likes who and maybe secondly we will get to the spiritual work. Where is the balance?
Dear Gianni,
In order to have fear that I will not be able to bestow, do I have to have at least a small vessel of bestowal, a small screen, at least an idea of what it means to bestow?
I have never been able to bestow. I don’t have this fear. Instead I have another sensation. I have been in deep darkness these past few days (same with the world kli) and now it feels like it’s going to lift a little bit, like I am about to receive another awakening from above, as it has happened many times before. I used to look forward to these “illuminations in the heart” but now I am dreading it, because of the acute awareness that it’s gonna go straight into my will to receive. It can’t go anywhere else – I have no screen, no vessel of bestowal, I will just take it an enjoy it intellectually or whatever and I don’t want this. I would rather not have it. I would rather stay in the darkness, cause here at least I have some awareness of what an incredible egoist I am. If I get the illumination, I will feel good and I will forget. I don’t know what to do and at this point it feels like I would rather go back to sleep than have this. What can I do?
Thank you ❤️
We come to fear through the work in the heart, and upon this work the Light works. So it’s upon us to cultivate this fear, and this is starting to build the Screen. It’s enough that its basis is the forms I know from Rabash are closer to bestowal, that I will look out for the friends spiritually, see their greatness and my loveliness, always add to what we had the day before, etc.
To the other question, I understand but we have to move forward always as this is the Creator’s will. So do it for Him and that’s even better.
If I stick to going to Kabbalists for answers to my spiritual questions, will any negative influences from my previous spiritual involvements quickly wane? I wish it were as simple as just leaving my previous tradition, but I feel like I have to pull it up by the roots. It has some undeniable psychological or spiritual basis that greatly affects the body-mind. I know that there’s a lot to Kabbalah, and I just want to make sure that I can gradually attain the Light while climbing the spiritual ladder even if my previous involvement in another spiritual tradition was deep. I know that setting the foundations right will be important, and I feel like I’m having to lay them over previous foundations, if that makes sense. I am not new to spiritual pursuits.
I study Kabbalah daily at this point in my life. I’m working on improving the quality of my study, but rarely a day goes by that I don’t involve myself in the wisdom.
The Reforming Light can do everything. There are no bigger or smaller problems for it. To the extent I want a solution, which will be different than any solutions I imagine, it will untangle and correct everything.
Hi Gianni,
In today’s afternoon lesson the instructors shared a quote from the Kabbalists: Love that is dependent, when the dependency is cancelled, the love is cancelled. (around 17 min) And that is an egoistic love.
But then again, I will ALWAYS be dependent on the Creator, I have nothing to give unless He gives me, so does that mean that I will always love Him egoistically? Even if I get the will to bestow, He will have to give it to me and “maintain” it, so me being not dependent is never going to happen, one way or another. I find this very disturbing. Can you please help me understand better?
Thank you so much!
No, there’s a correction that only the Creator knows how to do, called Lishma, where He gives us a new nature, so that I am like Him, and our mutual dependency is revealed, as “there is no Light without a Kli,” no Creator without a Created Being. He’s really suffering without His Created Being and we, on the other hand, can wait until tomorrow or next week…
Hi Gianni,
Kabbalah says that everyone has part of the ego that needs to correct, and by correcting himself, he corrects that part in everyone. And Baal HaSulam has done all 125 corrections. So, what happens when one corrects everything he should correct, like Baal HaSulam? He just sits and waits for the others to correct their parts?
Thank you!
There’s still a reality that is according to that uncorrected person’s perception, that they still dwell in a shattered perception. A Kabbalist can reveal all the degrees of perception, but cannot open up the World of Truth for others. After all, they don’t want it yet, and “there’s no coercion in spirituality.” They have smaller, nearer goals they’re still busy with. And to the extent of the Kabbalist’s Equivalence with the Creator, he suffers from this fact – that people are both suffering and don’t want to come out of it in a way that accords with the laws of reality. I heard also that for such a Kabbalist there is also something that is not revealed and cannot be until that last soul corrects himself, through his free choice, and joins all the others who await him in the Garden of Eden.
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