Preparation Question: In what way have I gained a deeper understanding of my life and of the forces working in the world?

[Tony Kosinec- KabU Instructor]

Preparation Question: In what way have I gained a deeper understanding of my life and of the forces working in the world?

[Jo Fakour]

Wow…I enjoy reading everyone else’s wonderful responses.  I have begun to understand that there reasons for the things that have caused my life to take the turnes that it has, however (don’t know if anyone else is experiencing this), I am having to think (through what feels like a brown paper bag over my brain) of years of religious dogma, preconcieved notions, and egoic motivations.  Its like I need an earthquake to shake it all down to rubble so I can start building again.  I am still dealing with lesson one and the concept of G-d and nature being one, so I am moving at a snails pace here but moving just the same.

[Colleen]

Well…..I hope this doesn’t sound too odd.  But when I was tiny, four or five years old, I believed then that I knew G-d, and I could feel him all around me and every step I took unfolded to understand his nearness better.  And then I had to go back inside the house…..sigh.  My parents were very young; I forgive them; they did the best they could with the information they had in their own lives.  I feel like I was born with the proper knowledge, but then “life here on earth” removed it.  I have had to travel a very long way to get back to the beginning, but I have enormous gratitude for all the “human” lessons on the struggles of being human because it has helped me in my life in my service of others.  But now I feel ready to do something for myself!  I have spent my life in the service of others, and now I will learn Kaballah so that I can be in the service of others, lol.  It’s hard to explain, but my service of others on earth cost me something of myself, but I felt good inside when I was able to help someone.  Often in the service of others, it is unfortunate and heartbreaking work.   So this was still a give and take type of relationship; things needed to happen to be balanced.  What I understand about Kaballah is I will be “full of light” while in the service of others no matter the outcome.  This fullness of understanding is an incredible blessing.  Thank you, Hashem.  BH

[Talya Machuca]

Finding out that Torah and Mitzvot don’t necessarily mean what I have been told, makes a lot of sense now because for me it was hard to realize that the way that it was transmitted was correct, I always felt that it was something missing, and finally, I figure it out through Kabbalah

[henry]

<p style=”text-align: right;”>The deepest understanding of my life so far has been obtained through the wisdom of kabbalah with its dazzling basic principles among others: The creation of worlds, the language of roots and branches, the correction of selfish desire, the equivalence of form and the possibility of ascending to the spiritual worlds. There I go. And I hope to continue because this journey is the only one we have to make.</p>

[Ricki]

I have become more aware of my desires and how thoughts follow desire, thoughts can grow or diminish desire. In this way, I have been feeling more in touch with subtleties of emotional awareness and states of perception.

I have realized more deeply that I don’t seem to have any control over my emotions, it’s not my choice or fault to feel any range of emotion.

The most pertinent development this week has been a focusing on what my senses are delivering me, purely. When this state washes over me I experience a form of wordless clarity, at the same time some kind of disconnection from the world I live in, both the physical and social way.

[Denise]

So much more aware of my intentions and desires. And becoming aware that there’s so much I don’t know yet with the forces that govern the world.

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