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When I watched video 2.1 and/or video 2.2, I began to realize what has been missing from all my attempts to do the right thing and help make the world a better, a good, world. This was always what I felt was what I wanted to do in life, but it never worked. Instead I got apposed at every turn, suspected and disbelieved, even accused of lying and of being evil.
What I was missing was that very fundamental and most crucial thing of all: A direct connection with the Creator, – It’s not that I didn’t believe in Him, certainly not. I always felt His presence and that He was guiding me towards “something”. But I never engaged Him directly because I felt I wasn’t ‘good enough’, I hadn’t achieved a spiritual level that justified me asking Him about anything, and certainly not asking Him to help me. So I just knew He was there, but struggled on my own.
Now I understand how important it is to engage with Him directly, and I know how to do so, and now I also know how to pray.
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When I watched video 2.4, you (Julian) made me chuckle when you said (something like this) “You probably have, or will, ask yourselves: Isn’t the wish to become like Him the greatest example of Egoistic drive that one can think of?”
It made me chuckle because yes, of course I have thought of that. But the answer doesn’t change: We have to work with our Ego by correcting our intentions – and alternatively maintain our already corrected intentions – behind the ego-driven things that we do and aspire to do.
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PS. I apologize for being late once again. This week I have been battling Covid, but I’m finally beginning to feel better. Thank you in advance for bearing with me.
It’s beginning to make sense. That’s a relief !
What is new & exciting is to be able to accept, now, that my ego is here to stay, that there is no point in trying to suppress it, and that it s based on the desire to do better than someone else.  I have been witnessing this in myself recently, and noticing that it causes me to be irritable & critical – which of course is noticed and the same is given back to me. Not pleasant for me, or the Other !
Since this is true for everyone, I may as well stop being critical of myself, since I can now see it from a higher perspective. However, I can only change myself, and although we ve been told Others will change around us, so far, I dont know that, and feel ambiguous and curious as to how I will see others from now on.
So, it seems, my friends, that we are being prepared to begin the group of 10, where we will have a LAB, a place where all this will begin to be recognized consciously. I am guessing that my ego will find it very challenging ! I just hope the point in the heat is strong & will prevail !
1) nothing in our reality is without a purpose of good.
2) Slowly, through our life experiences, we will begin to see that everything comes from a single attitude of someone, this Upper Force that operates on us. This is the point from which the wisdom of Kabbalah truly begins.
3) Love covers all crimes
Mind blowing – an understatement. Mine, or what’s left of it, went off like a cracker. Coffee went flying had to get another one. Like Myva it was Dr Laitman’s response to is there a God with a resounding NO! It’s just as well I listened to the remainder of the video as it put that statement into perfect context. It’s so easy to get captivated by our limited perception of reality in this world, a simulation of upper reality, where even a glimpse gives a different and mesmerising perspective. I am wondering what more than a mere glimpse might reveal?
Thank you for this opportunity to reflect, and share insights.
I’ve read a numerous comments from other students, your perspective helps shape others, thank you for contributing. A few take homes which resonate w/ me.
The ego is so close to us it’s difficult to see, through separation (mindfulness) we get to enjoy new perspectives and how to use it as a driving force.
Fixing relationships between one another, as well as our internal attitudes (treating those as one wishes to be treated) towards one another is the methodology to do this. The light that reforms.Â
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