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In English: I was trying to understand the meaning of the text. I failed, of course. I was irritated. So I had to remind myself about the intention all the time. Not very successfully, I guess.
In Hebrew ( I don’t speak Hebrew): I could let myself go, like listening to Ishtar’s Horchat Hai Caliptus. Some words I understood like Bina, Hochma, Elohim. I discovered that I like them very much. It was easier to hold the intention. Maybe because I was more relaxed?
English version: I was automatically trying to understand intellectually and was not able to switch to trying to sense instead.
Hebrew: Was even more difficult as I understood some of the words but not enough to truly understand intellectually. So again, I could not switch my mind by defocusing the intellect and focusing on the sensing instead.
Definitely need to practice.
Both versions worked for me. I don’t speak Hebrew, so I did not understand a word, however, I cannot really say anything different for the English version (not my mother tongue). But after I listening to Hebrew and listening to the English version a second time – whilst reading along now –, I became really tired and a voice inside of me told me: I will heal your wounds. And I understood that I had to go to sleep. It was very peaceful. Shortly before that a scene came to my mind where I was debating with some ficticious friend of mine and I only remember the words “bestowing anger”. That I found really, really amazing as it did not disturb the peace I felt. Anger is not the typical thing you would think of bestowing to someone, but I do have a lifelong problem of being rightfully angry with people in general, especially those close to me. So I do feel some closure now.
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