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There is none else besides him. What I don’t understand is who are we then? from this lesson, it states that our attitude towards the creator is the only thing that we can change.  It sounds like that is something else besides the creator? When I look at the natural world, I realize that all the animals, trees, and inanimate objects fall into line with the thought of creation. It is only our ego that goes against the grain.  I look at a lot of people who are not on this pathway and they will never enter this pathway. Do they have some quality that is besides him? My intuition says that your answer will say that it is only an illusion that we are separate from God, but if so, is that illusion in itself besides him?  Your answer will be that God placed this illusion into us so that we can rest next to him as the ultimate perfected piece of his creation if we so choose. but it still seems paradoxical to me.
The last course helped me to start thinking with my heart instead of my head. Â The methodology is helping me shut my eyes of rationalism and open my eyes of faith. Â I can sense my ego in its death throes as I exit Egypt and the Amelek has been placed at almost every exit point. Â Pg 137, attaining the worlds beyond. Â I feel it and it makes me want it more.
Everything just makes so much sense. The issue is is that I’m starting to see egoism and everything and starting to hate it quite a bit now I feel compelled to continue my studies in order to utilize the method of Kabbalah to obliterate my ego. I’m getting into this rut, where I am seeing my own ego and unable to do anything about it as well as seeing other peoples ego and being offended.
I want to understand the paradox of Kabbalah.  I dont understand how to transcend egoism to altruism without becoming a doormat.  I was in an abusive surgical residency and gave everything of myself into the residency, as much as I knew how to give. And, arguably, I gave too much.  I ended up burning out.  Does Kabbalah advocate being abused by a person or a system in power in search of altruism?  It seems easy for a Kabbalahist to be a Kabbalahist with no skin in the game, as in I don’t hear any practical life scenarios in KabU that address this.  I think of Christ, who was the ultimate altruist; does Kabbalah’s altruism extend to actual death in pursuit of shedding the ego?  What happens if a person seeking to be an altruist has a toxic abusive relationship with a parent.  Does the altruist need to give all to that parent leading  to loss of self and psychological deterioration?  I have heard casual answers to this question in KabU media saying:  Kabbalah is purely spiritual, you need to have a psychological condition treated psychologically.  But, this seems flippant and insufficient.  How do you achieve anything without a sense of I?
