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To take as much interest in the progress and path of others as I do for myself, to allow the light that reforms to do its work between us, to place my trust in the creator to resolve all differences and turn them into learning, using the Gilgal ‘head’, and to work with the Parzifum.
Hi Gianni and other students,
The more I progress, the more I am sure this is the path for me. However, I have one concern: If I leave Kabbalah after joining, then I’m just left with the increased darkness. Even though I know in my mind that this is giving more space for light to enter, as I lose touch with the group, I will lose touch with the light. I don’t want this to happen right now, but I naturally have a resistance to identifying with things, in this case I know that a time will come (even if it is not now), that I will resist wanting to continue because I will want conventional freedom–conventional because it is different from the freedom kabbalists talk about.
My Question is how can I prevent this from becoming another script? For example, the gym is for exercising, work is for helping the company, the bar is for socializing, etc. Then it follows that Kab U is for learning non-exploitative ways of connecting others.
Then like all other scripts it becomes a switch to turn on and off, when I’m here I am non-egoistic and selfless, but when I leave I can do whatever I want. In other cases, that’s is OK because if I don’t exercise, I don’t get stronger, if I don’t work, I don’t make money, and if I don’t go to the bar I don’t make friends. In this case I feel like it is different, because it is connecting with higher force.
Part of this stems from the fact that I am already starting to see a gap emerging between myself and others-those who have not crossed the machsom. I don’t think this is egoism talking, although it might be, but I think at a time I will want to step back so that I can be more simple. One of the common people as you might say.
After watching these videos, I’m more confident that this approach to learning Kabbalah is the best one because it does not depend on fairy tales or feel-good narratives but an honest and grounded approach to connect to the universal soul of ain souf, endless light.
We can connect with the upper force by associating with others who are also growing their point in the heart and have a desire to correct their egoistic nature in tandem with those who are interested in doing the same.
One thing I got from this lesson is to be able to dial in my fear of increasing desires. Knowing that it comes from a growing point in the heart, all my corporeal pleasures also growing poses less of a problem because I have always been responsible for controlling them so nothing has changes. I feel a big promise from being on the path to correction because it gives me hope for a life without exploitation of others being a final goal, which is similar to the creator’s quality of bestowal.
