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I believe the most important thing I have learned so far is concerning the transition from the will to receive for one’s self to the will to receive in order to bestow upon others and for the contentment of the Creator. My whole life had been grounded in egoism. I have made enough transition spiritually to have begun to receive with the intention of bestowing. These lessons have awakened a profound understanding that not only is this a good transformation, but that it is the essential transformation I have been searching for. As I have a clear attention on my thoughts, I now begin a conscious awareness of my intention in all I do. It’s not about me. It is we as One Being. I bestow upon the One all I am.
I have always had a strong desire for these things and have remained open and receptive. I have been very careful about allowing concepts and beliefs to crystallize where I’d remain stuck in forms that no longer served a purpose.
Desire to get in touch and act with it mutually. Act on that desire in a receptive manner. Be still and silent. Find what works best for you to become still and silent. The light is in eternal bestowal but one must remove obstacles to reception. In the stillness and silence there are no obstacles.
Thanks for your response. I believe I can be receptive to a new vocabulary. The older I have become the less attached I am to a particular description or method of expressing. I am thinking a new and fresh way might be just the thing to carry me far deeper in my practice. This, I believe, is what drew me to Kabbalah at this time. Giving a new form to matter is appealing as for some time changes in consciousness have been awakening things I can only hint at describing regarding the nature of my physical experience. It’s as if I’m morphing out of the physical even while participating in physical life. It’s a wondrous thing that can hardly be shared with anyone. It’s like stepping into a heavenly state which I want to share but fall short in any effort. In many ways I’m left feeling very alone in an experience that I want everyone to have now with me, though even that aloneness is not a sadness of any kind. I am at peace. However, I do long for community. I do have a wonderful marriage and many children. Perhaps at the appropriate time, my desire for community can be met by a group I believe I can be part of in your teachings. Thank you so much. I do get so much from your replies.
Thank you Seth. Your response absolutely thrills me! It raised more questions and thoughts than I expected. I look forward to participating in the system of Kabbalah. For a long time I have placed  attention on making changes by placing a focus within stillness and silence and from there imagining resolution of egoistic tendencies through affirmation and a full-faith expectation of an expression of that change in my consciousness. I did not have the vocabulary of Kabbalah nor the specific methodology. Sometimes I imagine my attainment to be well beyond my degree of attainment as I work so diligently to bypass so many steps and go straight to the source. Your answer is profound. Though I find peace beyond conditions, I find that I do return to conditions, perhaps a changed man, but not a completed man. I sense empty and partially filled vessels. If I’m to understand, it is only the filled vessel from which there is no return to a prior condition?
