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Hi everyone, I am Diane, a Greek/Canadian, living in Greece. I have been studying Torah since 2009 and my quest for seeking the truth & the Creator slowly brought me to the study of Kabbalah. I have been spending hours of study in Kabbalah and Tanya since 2019. The Creator has amazingly guided me (mostly through the internet) to these studies and now I feel  I am ready and want to further my understanding of the spiritual wisdom in the Zohar. I feel like a child in the candy store when I think of what I am about to learn studying with these teachers and all the other students! I hope I am found worthy of this knowledge!
I have really come to understand what is meant by the phrase “There is none else besides Him.” even though I had heard this phrase for years, during this course I realized that I had some residual misconceptions from my life before Kabbalah. I have a better understanding of my illusionary “free will” and how bound we are because of our DNA, culture and nurture. And last but not least, that I can help the process of correcting the world through my efforts to correct myself.
I have realized that all my years of Torah study are not wasted, even though I wished I had learned Kabbalistic principles first. I am content with the journey that the Creator has taken me through and I am so happy to be here, in this “environment” today!
I wish that my fellow students will continue to multiply in number and in their desire to be like our Creator so that very soon we will reach Tikkun Olam and conformity with our Creator.
My role is to continue to transform my uncorrected desires so that i can hasten the process. And hopefully guide and help others in the process.
The two videos about Revelation & Concealment, have helped me to understand what level of Spiritual Attainment I think I am at.
But how do I admit this without feeling egotistic about what I think of myself?
How do I get confirmation from an additional source so that I don’t feel like I am “smoking my own fumes”  😊
I think that all of our misconceptions start from the way we view our Creator. Just as Rav Laitman said in his video, we view our parents in the same way. When something restricts me, my ego and my corporeal nature want me to rebel but I have a choice of how to view this restriction. If  I have completely understood and believe/trust that The Creator is only good and that He only bestows good, then I know it’s my reality that is making me see the opposite. My first thought is to reflect inward. I must enquire of myself why am I feeling, thinking, or seeing my current situation as hurtful or difficult. If I quickly realize my need to trasform my thinking it’s a blessing from above, but if I can’t see anything then my next prayer is to ask for the Creator’s help. Lastly, I have to have “faith above reason” to know that it is my misconception of reality to blame and not the fault of the Creator. I must tell myself it is for my benefit and I must stay focused on the fact that all will work out in the end. This is what it means to me… now I pray for the Creator to give me strength to follow this in my life!
Since I believe that the point in my heart has been activated, I desire to complete the purpose that the Creator had for me when He sent me here. By studying Authentic Sources of Kabbalah and being in an environment with teachers and like-minded people, this purpose is becoming clearer to me. It is helping me recognize and is teaching me how to transform my wrong desires to receive into a correct desire to bestow. So, I think that studying here is achieving my goal perfectly!
