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My name is Elisheva Placeres Madrid-y-Acevo. My four generation ancestors were from Spain. Two sisters, one married to Bauer and the other married to Acevo migrated to Mexico City (Bauer) and her sister (Acevo) to Puebla, Puebla City. They escaped at the beginning of WWII. Placeres Madrid, my Papa’s surname and Acevo my mother’s surname. Traditionally, we honor both in our maiden names. I believe that our family, Jews, were chosen by G-d to be His people. The other side of that, particularly when we celebrate Pesach, we have survived all peoples who have tried to annihilate us.
When I began the study of Kabbalah, I was very confused at times regarding the bestowal and receiving. It took a lot of concentration for me to follow the lessons. As I continued course by course, I began to understand; however, with a child’s mind. I have completed the first courses and graduated to the Graduation Section. I have read the preparation reading materials and watched the videos. I am not an expert yet. However, my understanding is clearer. The words I read, I understand now. They make more sense to me as do the videos. I had the most wonderful parents, kind, understanding, loving, and very wise. I learned much from them. They taught my little brother, myself, and my two-year older sister how to be kind to everyone regardless of their social status. They were very happy and we were very happy. The taught us to be resilient; to respect others, to be positive even in times of difficulty. I am going to state that because I learned every word, feeling, and how to stay positive even in the greatest tragedies in my life, I have consistently existed under their teachings. What I have learned regarding Love Thy Neighbor as Thyself is what my parents were teaching us growing up. However, not in those words. We would read the Torah. However, it made sense to me, but not as deep as it now makes sense to me in learning Kabbalah; a higher sense, a deeper sense. I am looking forward to the Graduate Section and to the Retreat, although Visual. Thank you.
I have been overwhelmed with this portion of reading and in particular learning from Professor Wellman. I even cried when he stated about loving others as oneself. I believe that I have done that since a child. My most wonderful and wise parents taught us all of that and I have been true to their teachings. I was tested with the first husband who was a Beast (and to clarify, I do not mean this as an insult.) He truly harmed me and almost killed me after the divorce. However, he did not break me and I have not hated him. It was easier to blame his mother. Sometime after the divorce, this hate brewed in me like fire. I could not sleep. I could not do anything but have hate in my heart and soul. I had a very nice friend; a doctor who I finally told him about my hate. He told me that I needed to pray for her. I laughed. Two weeks past and I thought very much about his advise. I began to pray for her. I cannot remember how many days past. Once day I suddenly realized that I did not hate her anymore. I was free. That has been the only person in my life who stirred up so much hate in me and she also tried to kill me. I have been confused at some lessons in the beginning. However, I read everything and watch all the videos. At the present, I am going through a vicious psychological abuse from my son’s wife for two years. Because I am disabled, he brought me from San Antonio, TX to Ashburn, Virginia to live with him. He had all the divorce set up and from one day to another, he accepts not to divorce. Hence, after all the abuse an assaults, I found myself betrayed and again and even worse, the hate fired up when he told me he was not going to divorce her. I have to grandchildren, 9 and 6 years old who have witnessed their mother’s behavior. I do not remember which video it was from Professor Wellman in which he talks about “love thy neighbor as thyself.” But he also stated that one needed to also love they enemies. That is when it struck on me that if I wanted to reach The Creator, I could not pick and choose. I cried because this woman truly harmed me and has sequestered me in the bedroom where I have spent living for two years. I am sorry to tell such a large story. I just want to thank everyone who is teaching us. As of this morning, I no longer feel hate. Her and I will need to speak about moving on, but I want the conversation to be one of make it very clear that I am in peace. Hence, yes, I forgive her and this is what finally allowed me to understand how to get past the Screen. Thank you for you patience in this long story.
