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I have been overwhelmed with this portion of reading and in particular learning from Professor Wellman. I even cried when he stated about loving others as oneself. I believe that I have done that since a child. My most wonderful and wise parents taught us all of that and I have been true to their teachings. I was tested with the first husband who was a Beast (and to clarify, I do not mean this as an insult.) He truly harmed me and almost killed me after the divorce. However, he did not break me and I have not hated him. It was easier to blame his mother. Sometime after the divorce, this hate brewed in me like fire. I could not sleep. I could not do anything but have hate in my heart and soul. I had a very nice friend; a doctor who I finally told him about my hate. He told me that I needed to pray for her. I laughed. Two weeks past and I thought very much about his advise. I began to pray for her. I cannot remember how many days past. Once day I suddenly realized that I did not hate her anymore. I was free. That has been the only person in my life who stirred up so much hate in me and she also tried to kill me. I have been confused at some lessons in the beginning. However, I read everything and watch all the videos. At the present, I am going through a vicious psychological abuse from my son’s wife for two years. Because I am disabled, he brought me from San Antonio, TX to Ashburn, Virginia to live with him. He had all the divorce set up and from one day to another, he accepts not to divorce. Hence, after all the abuse an assaults, I found myself betrayed and again and even worse, the hate fired up when he told me he was not going to divorce her. I have to grandchildren, 9 and 6 years old who have witnessed their mother’s behavior. I do not remember which video it was from Professor Wellman in which he talks about “love thy neighbor as thyself.” But he also stated that one needed to also love they enemies. That is when it struck on me that if I wanted to reach The Creator, I could not pick and choose. I cried because this woman truly harmed me and has sequestered me in the bedroom where I have spent living for two years. I am sorry to tell such a large story. I just want to thank everyone who is teaching us. As of this morning, I no longer feel hate. Her and I will need to speak about moving on, but I want the conversation to be one of make it very clear that I am in peace. Hence, yes, I forgive her and this is what finally allowed me to understand how to get past the Screen. Thank you for you patience in this long story.
I have watched all the videos from Professor Wellman. In particular, the history of the Zohar. The writings “travelling” to so many places and then found and put together. This is an amazing story. In learning about the Book of Zohar confirms to me even more that all moves through The Creator.
As I continue learning from Kabbalists, Kabbalah instructors and videos, the history, the method, the knowledge continues to amaze me every time. The eagerness that rises inside me continues to want to know more and more.
I like Dr. Wellman’s classes and especially the way he explains our world corporeal and the Higher World. It is very easy to understand concepts and clear one’s mind of obstructions and confusions. The example of the angel making something real when the thing itself does not even know it is going to do. It is wonderous that for every action we perform in this corporeal world has already been programmed before we even thought of doing. That raises a question for me: if this is the way we are pressed to live our lives when actions have already been decided for us, how can we get away or stop from performing egoistic behaviors?
The video on the Zohar was amazing. The way the Zohar was introduced and explained made it for me very understandable. In my opinion, the way through the Path is through reflection. What I mean and have learned so far is to live one day and for the next day, reflect on my actions to see which ones I need to stop or start doing. The point in the heart is there for all of us. The difficult part is to recognize it and/or want to recognize it. Once it is recognized, then one is on one’s way to the Path.
