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I was having trouble understanding fully The Screen and the Equivalence of Form. With the example of the Host and the guest, I finally understood how to attain the Primary Tool-The Screen. I finally understood how to exit the program of five senses-egoism in order to enter the program of a sixth sense. The program that exists outside the program of egoism. In exiting the program of egoism, I will be able to enter the sixth sense which will allow me to enter/sense the Upper Worlds, the Spirituality by correcting myself and rise through the upper worlds to achieve Equivalence of Form with the Creator. I makes perfect sense to me now. However, correcting oneself, that is eliminating egoism, is a challenge I want to take. It is an intention to align myself with the Creator; to accept the Light and to bestow to the Creator.
I have read a lot. I have learned a lot from readings and videos. There is a lot of intricate learning. That is, all the phases that comprise the learning of Kabbalah. But what blew my mind in learning how to align with the Creator, was for me, a beautiful summary when I read: “As He is merciful, you are merciful. As He is compassionate, you are compassionate.” This is powerful.
By understanding how to bestow. As one understands how to bestow, step by step, the point of the heart will develop and illuminate the path one is to follow. To follow this path, one will have had to understand egoism and work alongside to rid oneself of all egoism. At this point, the vessel, the creature, the one, will be ready to fully accept without any shame all the Light that is the Creator’s intent from the beginning. Finding that one path towards the Light of the Creator, the understanding will be that one has stepped outside the “program,” box of five senses to enter into the realm of the six sense. That is my goal. As I have mentioned before, I talk to HaShem every day. I ask Him questions about the why of some things, some happenings, etc. I understand what I have learned at this point. From my perspective, it is not going to be an easy path to follow because there are still “loose ends” in my present life. This means to me that I have to be more kinder, more forgiving, more giving (Mitzvot). I can say with truth that I have been kind. I have forgiven what I believed I could never forgive and leave it in the past. I have done a lot of Mitzvot. However, my vessel still has some residue (egoism) and that is where I need to initiate the elimination of the residue in order to become aligned with The Creator.
Tony, thank you for your detailed illustrations and explanations regarding the Ten Sefirot and The Screen. I am understanding and thank you for your summaries. They are very helpful. It is not easy, almost impossible to understand Kabbalah just by reading books. I am understanding on a different level as you guide us. I feel that I am at the edge or tip of Phase 3. If that were to be so, how will I know that I will be approaching Phase 4? I understand it is not a “one step” ahead. It is a long journey. Thank you.
Seth, your response to Dana in terms of whatever we have, whatever qualities we have, whatever each and everyone of us has, is all perfect, predetermined. When I pray, I do thank Hashem for blessing me with loving and wise parents, older sister and little brother. At the age of 15, the life I knew was gone forever. Many times along the way, I have looked back at my life many times and I have wondered, “what if” this or that had not happened? Where would I have been? What would my life have looked like? I talk to myself a lot and I have imagined that if a “magician” would come up to me and tell me that I could enter a world of magic and go back in time to prevent that terrible accident, would I? My response to myself has been a “no,” because without understanding or even knowing about Kabbalah, my reasoning has been that everything that has happened in my life was for a reason; all the suffering and all the egoism. I have watched Tony’s video four times. I drew on a notebook that I have been keeping to take notes and I drew what he drew. His explanations followed with the illustrations has opened my eyes. I believe I understand Phases 1 through 3. I have followed the videos and the readings. However, my understanding was sketchy, bits and pieces. I believe I understand so much only as of today, the fourth time of watching Tony’s video and illustrations; drawing them in my notebook, making my own notes on the side. However, here I am and I do not know how to reach Malhut, see through the screen, perceive outside the box. What I do know is that through your teachings, my vessel will one day join the other vessels and together join other vessels and so on so that we can pursue the Thoughts of Creation and not the actions of the creature. I believe I have learned much today. However, I still live in the world of egoism awaiting to learn to cross the barrier.
