[Helen]

I think I am a bit lost here…I thought we were to grow the Kli, which is the will to receive but the difference is to use this desire in the direction of bestowing.  What does it mean to “grow the Kli”? it means to grow the desire to receive, to receive what? to receive the reforming light from the Creator, not for my own benefit, but to please the creator. so far on right track? if so, will my corporeal desire in daily life also grow on parallel?  how do I minimize that corporeal impact? by be more aware of my increasing desires and then control it?  it sounds like you are saying my egoist desire will not grow, it’s already at it’s full potential but I am just not seeing it clearly yet?

sorry if you have already answered my question but it am not getting it.

[Helen]

Hi Gianna, I am sharing what you said with our 10 “lower myself and raise the friends above me; give love of friends to the ten, and not wait for love to be shown to me, such that friends will behave in manners that suit my opinion of what love of friends looks like”

my questions is: should we encourage each friend in our 10 to share with us how they’d like to be loved( and maybe it’s different from time to time) ? if not, how do we know what we do(as many actions can be the conduct of love) will really help this friend?

[Helen]

Hi Gianni, probably my questions did not  make much sense, is that why it’s not answered yet? basically I am asking while our desire to bestow grows, our desire to receive all grow at the same time correct? how do I manage myself so my desire to receive won’t affect my loved ones(friends and families) while I continue to use it to build the Kli in spiritual work?  thanks!

• This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by Helen.

[Helen]

Hi Gianni

for the degree of coarseness, a couple of questions

1. is it correct that I will become more self-love(scary!) before I can start to be corrected? is that a necessary step in order for me to reach this desperation for correction? and actually it’s a constant spiral? I get worse then I elevate, I get even worse then I elevate again?

2. within the 10, we will probably understand each others behavior(hopefully) and work together, but I imagine this will bring negative impacts to my daily life? how do I minimize  that corporeal life impact,  as obviously I want to change to be better not to be worse, not just spiritually but also for my corporeal life.  not sure if I make sense to you.

thanks!

[Helen]

I understand the theory, but how do you actually raise above your feels and ego? because it’s against your nature… I will start with smiling.

[Helen]

it takes two to dance, I am eager to learn how working on yourself is doable and how would that change everything.

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