[Helen]

” I don’t not want to be a wicked one, I want to justify you but I  don’t know how to go above reason, please help me” , this is what I truly feel. is this the right prayer that will be answered? how do I know it’s answered?

appreciate your help

[Helen]

I find myself trapped in “not able to justify the Creator” sometimes, especially seeing loved one suffering.  I know it’s my will to receive, as it hurts me, as I have no solutions for their suffering. I know this is the time for faith above reason, but that’s on intellectual level, as I do not feel it. based on what I am learning, this is the time for true prayer, but I do not know what to pray for other than” please correct me”. I think that prayer is on intellectual level as well. it doesn’t seem like I am in a descend, as to pursue spiritually has been important to me. so probably I am wicked…but I do not know how to get out of this wicked state. I feel very sad to be a wicked one.

[Helen]

what about right and line, are they the same as righteous and wicked? , and how all of those states interconnect with each other?  for example, during descent, do I also tend to wicked and leave Shechina in the dust. are they causes and effects relationship or not necessarily? are they all sent from the Creator? but we read an article about Wicked and Righteous is up to us. I guess I want to understand the inner connection of all those state and where I put my emphasis on.

thanks Gianni

[Helen]

Hi Gianni

Please help to put below terms in context, how they are related to each other and/or how they are different. also, is it important for me to recognize what quality/state I am in and why?

Ascend & Descend
Right line & left Line
Righteous & Wicked
Shechina in the dust

thanks

Helen

[Helen]

Hi Gianni,

As we are in the preparation period, no Kli yet. and when there is no Kli, there is no light….so without light, what’s correcting us so we can cross the Machsom?

thanks as always

Helen

[Helen]

Hi Gianni

the spiritual work, what’s the goal, how to get there is becoming more and more clear to us, I know we probably haven’t start the journey yet, but at least on intellectual level, things are getting more and more clear. As we can’t and shouldn’t apply the things we are learning in YG blindly in corporeal life, and we deal with all sorts of hardship in corporeal life, other than be able to understand it’s purpose and who is behind everything better, we nevertheless need to deal with it. I heard many times that we shouldn’t mix the two and in corporeal life we shall continue to live like an average normal person. My question is, as my inner quality starting to change, how can I continue to live like my old self?  it’s like I put some frozen water under the sun, as it’s starting to melt a little, I put it back to the freezer again, corporeal is like a reverse action.  it seems like spiritual work is more structured, more clear logic, like science, if you do A, you will get B, if you repeat enough times, you will get Z. but corporeal life is like tangled wires. it feels like both are real work, both are needed, but there is no remedy for corporeal life.

I guess I am not sure exactly what answers I am looking for , other than to share this “frustration” and “confusion”.

thanks

Helen

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