[Jack Davidsen]

Hi Gianni,

I’m sorry to be so late in responding.

 

The week’s Knowledge Check went like this:

“Tag the statements that are true:

 

1.   There are many components (or activities) one undertakes when part of a Kabbalistic group – including lessons, workshops, meals, Yeshivat Haverim (gatherings of friends).

2.  From the outside, the activities of a Kabbalistic group may appear to be the same as any other social club, but they are actually experiences that help grow one’s knowledge of spirituality.

3.  Activities in a Kabbalistic group enhance all of the concepts that we have already learned about, such as drawing the Reforming Light and building an intention for bestowal.

4.  All of the provided statements are true.

 

I thought all the statements are true, but the second statement isn’t, and therefore the fourth statement isn’t either. The 1st and 3rd are true. I don’t understand why the 2nd statement isn’t true as well.

But I’m sure I’ll figure it out along the way. 🙂

[Jack Davidsen]

I know I’m late, this week is over, but I’ll post my question anyway. Who knows, somebody may be able to explain to me what I don’t understand…

In this week’s Knowledge Check one of the questions was about which of three possible answers (one, two, or all three) is true. The second of the three options read:

“From the outside, the activities of a Kabbalistic group may appear to be the same as any other social club, but they are actually experiences that help grow one’s knowledge of spirituality.”

The first and the third were true, and I had them correct, but I also think this one is true, but it isn’t. Even after being told I had it wrong, it still seems true to me. What have I misunderstood? What about isn’t true?

I’m sure I’ll figure it out some time. See you in week 2. 🙂

[Jack Davidsen]

Just a quick one here…

Julian, video 1.1., it is Perfect! You ask us what We want (or expect), but you said it all so incredibly well in this video. It is exactly what I hoped for. And so…

I want to thank you, Julian, for making an absolutely awesome course for us!

And, of course, thank you to the team who helped Julian put it all together, video recording it and making it available on the KabU website, and the instructors (Gianni?) who take the time to answer our questions.

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PS. I wish I could have participated in the meeting that I understand you held for us last week, but I have been ill and have also struggled with other ego-demons. I will do my utmost, and pray, for something such as not being able to attend real-life connecting with my instructor/s and fellow Kabbalah students to not happen again!

[Jack Davidsen]

I will not use the allegory of the womb as the light because my fellow students have already done it so well, I couldn’t add to what they’ve already said.

My wish is to have that Point in my Heart grow and become more than a point, and I think for that to happen we will probably have to begin engaging with others, instructors and students, in real-time. I hope for this because the ‘gains’, the revelations, when they happen are so immense, but the ego-acting-out-stuff that always happens after an experience of growth is a force that threatens to stop or even reverse the good that I achieved. And I really believe that if I am to succeed in not falling victim to my own ego’s demands, I will need to have others around me (over the internet, at least for starters) because it will help me focus on being there for others instead of always having to be there for Jack’s overgrown ego because it just won’t shut up.

I happen to know that if I get the chance to connect with others, my ego won’t be able to stop me or get in the way, and now that I have finally found others who share my longing to help create a better world – for ourselves and/or others, it’s all fine as long as it is about making things better, making things good! – I have a deep longing to begin the work together, first in a Lab (I understand why the term Lab is used now rather than a Ten, which is the minyan we will eventually work together with, when we’re ready to take that step).

 

Rav Laitman surprised me in the video above here. I know that experience and feeling, that he describes, so well, and he surprised me because it is a feeling you get when you know that You have done something that you know you did for the good of others, not for yourself, and you have a sense of fulfilment in having done it.

I think he surprised me because he usually never speaks about personal achievements and how that can make you feel strengthened in your resolve to continue your work with the Light and attaining Equivalence of Form.

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PS. While I was writing this post, I hit some wrong keys and suddenly a message appeared that told me “Kabbalahinfo has received your report and we will look into it, don’t worry, you will remain anonymous”. It sounded to me as if whatever happened had to do with a report of complaint about somebody had been sent in my name, and I just want to point out that this was certainly not my intention, and I hope they will dismiss the whole thing. I’m very sorry that this happened, I don’t know how it happened, but I wish it hadn’t.

– I guess I screwed up. I mean, I know my posts are lengthy and messy, and I wish I could do better. But this is a new level of mess, and I apologize. – I’m going to send a message to KabU Support as well so as to be sure this misunderstanding gets resolved quickly and without anything bad coming from it.

[Jack Davidsen]

One of the best experiences during the previous course was when I was watching your (Julian’s) videos, especially videos 3 and 4. I would find myself thinking of something, and seconds later you would be talking about that very thing I had been thinking about. Even when it was something unpleasant, this would make me chuckle.

There was this once when you were talking about how we would no doubt at some point come across somebody who annoys us for whichever reason, and yes, indeed I had just been thinking about that because it had happened to me the evening before – not in connection to the course (I haven’t come across anybody here that annoys me, not among our instructors and not among my fellow students), I had been watching a Zoom meeting on Youtube, and that’s where it happened. I was lucky, however, for I was aware of the ego playing a part in it, and I didn’t let it get to me. Also, it was only a very minor thing, so…

There was also this once when you said we might forget what you had been telling us, and sure enough, I had been wondering about this very thing. In fact, I had been thinking again and again during the whole course: “Why don’t I remember learning this?” (I have taken this course once before, almost three years ago).

I don’t know how to point to one thing as the best because the whole course has been such a joy, and that’s despite me being ill and in so much physical pain most of the time and mourning for what is happening in Israel.

You have given us so much great advice that will be useful to us when we get to experience working together in Lab situations, and I will never again forget about Ahap and Galgota Enayim. 🙂

 

What do I expect from this course? Well, I am sure it will be a wonderful experience. I mean, with such great instructors and such wonderful inspiring, intelligent, and kind-hearted students by my side, it can only be good.

Other than that, I expect what I just read in the syllabus, and I can’t wait!..

Thank you, everybody, for being part of my life!

[Jack Davidsen]

I have learned to be more aware of my Ego and recognize how it works in the situation. It isn’t something that will go away because I know about it, I will have to continue to learn and get through the layers by continuing to learn and continuing to be observant.

Since I have done this course once before, there must have been something that caused me to stop. I think the reason for that was that I just wasn’t sure if I deserved to be among truly good people like my fellow students and our instructors…..Or maybe I wasn’t sure if anybody would be able to see and accept me for who I am: Somebody who just wants to be a good person who helps make the world a better place to be.

This past week something happened that changed this fear and made it almost go away. I realized that I had no reason to doubt myself, for I was right all along. It doesn’t mean I had no reason to do some self-searching, I needed to do that, and I can say beyond doubt that I have KabU, and Kabbalah to thank for having found peace within myself – that is, I have the Creator to thank for it, but He did it all through all of you guys, KabU and my fellow students. I cannot thank you enough, for even if you don’t know it, you have been there for me throughout this difficult journey.

I can’t wait to get to know some of you beautiful people in person. 🙂

One of the most important things I have learned is the fact that I didn’t know how to include the Creator during my search over the years. I knew He was there, I can “feel Him” at any time if I choose to, even now as I write this. I just never felt I had any “right” to ask anything of Him, so I didn’t. I just trusted He would continue to lead me, as He has done all along. Of course, I can wonder why He let me wait until now, since after all I knew I wanted to study Kabbalah since the late 1990s. But the reason may be that I didn’t know how to include Him on a personal level. – I really think that is where I went wrong, and that is the reason why it dragged out for so long before I found KabU.

What I wish for my fellow students: I wish for you that you will grow farther than I will because the world needs you. And I have a little wish for myself hidden in my wish for you, and it is that you will help me get a little further than I was when you are ahead of me. Does that make sense?…

Give just a little bit to my AHP (Ahap)? I promise that I will do all that I can to give to your GE (Galgota Enayim).

I wish for everybody here that you will achieve Equivalence of Form with the Creator. And I wish that because it is my greatest wish for myself, so how can I not wish this exact same thing for you?

I have been inspired all along through these past five weeks. And Julian, you have a way of being so very, very inspiring even when I already know what you are talking about (because I have done this course before).

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I’d like to say one final thing… Until this, the very last week of the last 5-week course, I haven’t known what to do with myself in life because I am disabled, past 65 yrs of age, and I have no formal education nor a job. This has made it difficult for me to see how I could be useful to others, to the world around me, and even though I always have had this deep longing for spiritual transcendence, understanding, and growth, it just isn’t enough to sit with all of it alone in a small apartment somewhere in a tiny country in Northern Europe. And I wasn’t really aware of how much it derailed me until just this week, when I realized where I’m headed and that I will be of use to others and to the world. I hope it’s okay if don’t go more into it than this, it is just very, very important to have purpose beyond learning stuff that you can’t share.

I will be able to share what I am learning here!… Maybe not this week, and maybe not the next, but the time will come.

I am so very, very grateful to all of you, instructors, fellow students, Dr. Michael Laitman, and, not least, the Creator! Bless you all!… and Thank you!

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