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I also struggle with loving others in this current human environment of extremism but do desire the coming change of connection with the creator. I do not believe I will see it in my lifetime unless something drastic and sudden happens. I am hoping that this soul desire currently in me will not have to make so many mistakes and take so long to find the path to creator in next lifetime.
I am reading the volumes of Zohar Pritzker edition by Daniel Matt and I notice that my mind loses focus that the words are describing an internal process happening now and not just literature of historical events from the past. But, I can say when I spend several hours a day in the study my sleep is filled with dreams pertaining to the wisdom in the study that I do not perceive while being awake (maybe this sleep and dreams is actually the reality of being awake?). So I noticed the same process going on while listening to this reading, first my mind getting caught in a literal meaning of something outside myself then a switch to recognition this is about what is going on inside my soul and collective soul. My ego would like to and tries to beat me up about how this is beyond my understanding but I have made a vow to myself to keep pushing on no matter what the feelings arise as truly my feelings are all over the place!
My desire from a point of desperation to step out of suffering seems opposite from stepping into the light through the point in the heart. It seems egoism and not spirituality is the motivator, maybe I need to be open to both?
Hello everyone, my name is Joseph and I live in Maine USA. I have always been drawn to study different religions, ego and spiritual development, along with many counseling techniques to help bring some form of healing to the people that come to counseling sessions with me. I would like to gain a form of connection with others that are also studying this material as this is my greatest ego fear in this moment that I desperately desire correction for. My experience is that being curious and challenging information I receive while working to integrate new ways of perceiving has always led to ridicule from others. My ego does not want to open up to connecting with others and just to write this is a battle inside that may keep me from sleeping tonight.
Growing up in home with the rule be seen but not heard created significant communication deficiency in my marriage which created struggles of understanding and trusting being free to communicate anything that was going on inside me, this created separation and took me 10 years of much suffering to overcome. Even as I write in this box now to a space where I do not know the other I have an energy of this is not right to be sharing. Beliefs can be very ingrained in many facets. I am 60 years old, have worked as a counselor dealing with these issues in others as well as in myself, and yet as this moment points out there always seems to feel like a lingering shadow of this belief will always follow.
I have been married 40 years and wife and I can hear each others thoughts at times, we know each other deeply but the first 10 years of marriage were hell as we did not have the information being learned in this course. I wish all newly married couples could have this information to start their lives together with. I am a counselor and many marriage issues stem from childhoods and people picking a partner to fix that had same issues as related to parental connection in childhood.
