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I know the Creator is the source of everything in this world, yet I have a friend that was severely abused and almost murdered by her husband. While I reconcile my own life experience with the Creator, I also think about her experience. He harmed many people and took personal satisfaction in it, but now he is in prison. I know that it wasn’t my personal experience, but where are people like her ex husband in spirituality?
I’m here because I came to the deep and specific desire to know the entire structure and system of spirituality and the purpose of my life in it. No joke. I felt like I needed that to want to live. It took years for it to grow that strong. Once I started reading the Zohar ZoharI felt it was telling me what I needed. Baal HaSulam’s words confirmed it. Then the Creator showed me that everything in my life was from Him and that He brought me to this. There aren’t words to describe how that immediately changed my perception. My goal is so broad, but until I come to all the specifics inside me I have to keep going. I am also dissatisfied with my current spiritual understanding. I’m completely blind. I know this because I’m dissatisfied with my life and the world around me. I’m so tired of ignorance passed off to the masses as knowledge, what we do to our environment, narcissism, how far everything is from its source. And I know this frustration is only about me. Therefore, I keep going.
Freedom is choosing to serve others that share our values. We serve each other because we value spirituality and we elevate bestowal. Freedom is choosing the direct path to the Creator, rather than suffering for it alone.
This video made me see the patterns of seeking service in my life. I thought it meant giving up my freedom for others. I was comfortable in doing so, but now I see it’s the opposite. I gain my freedom and so do you. It also makes me think of the animate level of desire, represented by Bina. It was in one of Baal HaSulam’s Introduction to the Book of Zohar. He described an animals’ sense of freedom so beautifully. When I think of Bina I think of what it feels like to be a mother. It helps me understand love and bestowal. It seems as though I’m speaking about unrelated matters but they seem connected here.What struck me about this lesson was that it dealt with something I had been wanting to have a better sense of. The Thought of Creation is what I think of with this lesson. I was excited to be introduced to the ideas that could help me with a fledgling sense of how it operates in me and the world. There’s also more here than what I’ve mentioned, but I can’t put it into words.
