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I never could quite swallow or understand the fall of Babylon as it was taught to me as a child, and later as an adolescent in the religious school I attended. I gained a deeper, clearer understanding of Abraham. The analogy story of the caterpillar really gave a good representation of the whole world situation.
My expectation is for the LIGHT to lead me to more clarity, to help me stay on this journey and to have patience with me. And I’m hoping to gain more a feeling of connection.
I’ve gained perspective over what I now know as “correction.” It’s not always pleasant but it’s what wakes up and nurtures our “point in the heart.” This explains some of the spiritual challenges I’ve faced in the past. Just wow… so THIS is where it was all leading.
In this course, I want to better understand the practical side of this. The last course emphasized the need to not study alone…something I’ve done a lot of. I want to continue to see how all this works. I’m anxious to understand the true meaning and implications of “loving others as I love myself” at a higher level.
My role is to lift my vision spiritually to see the bigger picture and my place in it. Do my part in this collective soul, to love others as I love myself. For me, that’s the biggest task…I can love others, but I have to do it better by accepting that I’m just as precious as everyone else… Ultimately, I must continue to learn how to sort out what I was born with, and to more consciously follow the path I was born to be on.
What most inspired me in the course?
Wow…I just looked up the word “inspire” just for kicks and found 11 listed definitions. (go look for yourself at dictionary dot com). I’m reading through all the definitions to see how each may apply. As a whole, I’ve never gone through this much introspection about my life so far, and what direction I’m heading in spiritually. I understand better why Kabbalah is called a “spiritual science.”The other thing that I want to call out is, reading some of the questions and reflections of other participants in the forums can be inspiring. Some instructors can put you to sleep, while others can inspire you to learn difficult concepts. I appreciate the instructors here.
What have I learned about myself in the process?
I’ve put in amazing perspective things I’ve gone through in life. At this point I’m too shy or afraid to share my personal revelations but know things are going deep. Because of my experience of being spiritually abused in a religious cult, I question everything. It makes me cry to think about how trapped I was inside something that took total control over my heart and mind. So, I’m cautious. So cautious at times that it takes me some time to grasp new concepts but I will keep plugging along.What do I wish for my fellow students in their spiritual development?
We could really inspire each other as we learn more about Kabbalah. I feel like I might accidentally say something stupid in the forums but I hope as time goes on I will gain more confidence. So I wish for all of us to keep learning, to keep questioning and to reach out to each other more. And to do all this with a firm foundation of love and kindness. (And for me…a bunch of patience as I plug along).I see where I am in real reality. I don’t want to drink any koolaid like I did before in a cult so my progress is slow and purposeful. That said, I am fully committed to keep on learning. I believe my point in the heart came at an unusual time. I’m keeping track of all my thoughts along the way. Some things I have put in perspective have left me truly amazed.
