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Hi Gianni, what is actually true connection? And how can we build enough faith to keep trying, in spite of all the shattering? This is really a question that is bothering me. I understand it’s bouncing in and out of connection, but so far far…I experienced connection to be a feebly momentary state… and most of the work to be either habits/routines without any inner connection OR there was something that felt like connection but then people would bounce out of it and leave it shattered. Maybe my observation is wrong or I got a dark part of the map to discover… but I am starting to be completely clueless… I feel like we are unable to connect. And now I wonder… it says to light up the point in the heart it needs the society… so what needs to be the properties of the society? And what needs to be the intention in the work if people come together? Is there anything that makes true connection possible? And what needs to be the inner attitude towards this in and out of connection? I understand the ego wants to protect us… but it’s pulling us out of connection… so how do we get above that? How can we stop it from preventing us to truly connect. Not with words, not by saying “ I annul”, but by DOING it? How can we tear down the walls of our intellect that is very smart and gives us all the beautiful phrases we learned to repeat in the workshop rounds… empty treasure boxes, not filled with love or the states we name.
There is another question… what is the definition true love in Kabbalah? It seems not to be in our words, it seems to be in the action… but it seems like a long-term goal to find out what it really is, and like we have very limited sensors to get there.
I understand there is this approach to feel the resistance coming in the connection, and go above it… but is this an action of love? What else would be an action of love? And how can I grow towards truly loving others, even an inch closer? How can I make actions of overcoming count, so that it’s not just a mechanical action, but truly and acceleration in my efforts. Because it feels like we spend so much time in the same state , going through the same routines, having the same prayer… and nothing happens… and then I think if it’s a mechanical thing… if it’s just an obligation… the same again and again… does it change anything? Or how do we have to constantly increase our efforts, especially among friends? How do we really jump on that spaceship to accelerate and get into a new orbit? And where in all this is love? What is actually real love? How can we find out? How can we grow towards it and not deviate?
Hi Gianni, thanks so much for your recent answers:). How can we help feel each other that acceleration? How can we connect in such a way that we truly reach a new state? Is it a passive thing… or is it an active goal?
Thank you Gianni… now… in the morning lesson today, there were so many examples… and I understand it’s about making an effort in spite of everything given to a person . About trying to “turn over”… and that whichever movement there is… it’s about the effort, the change, the acceleration of development… and I wonder if only this is spiritual, because anything else is nature. Which makes me feel it’s still 95 percent “ nature”… meaning just humans versus humans, acting out the laid out script… which then would mean in all the pain, suffering, darkness… there is no creator there and no reason to call upon him, because this is just what humans do to humans and the creator is a force acting around it… but doesn’t meddle with the script itself. Is that so? I really wonder what to do with all the multiple imprints of pain this “natural” life leaves… what is it that people say or do when they suffer or see others suffer and they have Kabbalistic understanding? How do they go through such things as opposed to people who don’t have that “awakened point in the heart”?
Thank you, Gianni, This makes sense Actually , I am wondering, what are these special circumstances under which people may change their ten- no one can force them not to, I understand that-and it’s contra productive towards the goal, I understand as well…but changing of tens, it’s something I heard quite a few times… the reasons were so different. For example , one wished to go to the morning lesson regularly and the rest of the group not. One wished to have a physical ten. One moved time zones. But also one described being pushed out from his ten. One left because the others would not pay mazer… so anyways… it seems like we are all total egoists, it cannot get much worse, and at least a ten should have a minimum functional level.
So… what is right here? And who is making a decision of what is considered a ten and what isn’t? I feel forcing people to make a step towards connection when they are not ready disrupts everything. And this part is my own experience. So… without any clarity, guidance and direction just holding on to a given decision… it simply did not work. I see the point… that it’s part of the work… but I see people getting lost, and that’s it. No change, no adding, no development. Just getting lost. This is why I don’t understand how I know what truly is a ten. A name in the Arvut room? An information? A telegram group? It must be much more than that… And I really don’t get how it is formed… if through structural decisions or naturally… you know, I understand that in a ten everyone should be able to work with everyone. But it doesn’t work always… so what’s the counsel then? If it does not work? And people just leave? Or cannot work anymore? Or get completely stuck? Is holding on still the golden rule?
See, I am asking because this has been the status quo for three months now… and “holding on” can break you apart if there are two opposite directions and none seems functional.
