So is it because we are compelled to achieve the state of God that we suffer?

I recently participated in a meditation. During the meditation there was a part where the instructor said all that I need is within my soul and instructed me to feel my soul ( if I remember correctly) . At this time I saw something like a lung with branches or rather a tree. I cried when this image appeared to be lighting up and alive and nourishing me with a sense of well being. After my meditation I saw a similar image in the form of your website logo. What does the tree like image in your logo represent?

In disclosing a portion, Covering two.  Does that article explain why Kabbalists do not speak of thier own attainment?  Because it is unnecessary and will not help?

So when talking about Kabu, Seth told me to take notes.  I was reading in “Attaining the worlds beyond” I think it was that Rav said not to try and memorize but to get the feeling of it and it would be better to forget and then read it again.  So my question is how do I know what info I am learning for feeling and what info I need to learn to learn intellectually, thanks?

Is having a screen like lifting weights?  In the sense that you push yourself for a while then you go into a deload to let your body recover for a week or so and then you start ramping it up again for a few weeks or so you progressive overload and then you deload for a couple weeks and so on.  So what I am saying is you work work get to a level then go down a bit but you are still better than you were and then you are on a plateau for a while even though you are working then you jump up high, go back down some and then plateau for a while.  This is in George Leonards book called “mastery” where he talks about mastering anything if you by some chance are familiar with this line graph he shows.

So someone very very close to me died last year of covid.  Thinking about “there is none else beside him” I cannot see why this had to happen so I am pretty pissed at the creator knowing “he” did this.  What is a proper thing to do with these feelings?