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Just a little bit from the first video under this week’s Related material:
Gil Shir (KabU instructor) describes how the 5 greatest Kabbalists through time, those who brought Kabbalah into a new phase five times through the history of mankind, began with Adam, then Abraham, and on through Ari, and finally… Baal haSulam!
When I heard and watched the time line of this, I realized that we, who are students of Kabbalah today, right now, live in a very unique, special time in the Journey of Mankind. I was born four years after Baal haSulam passed on, just in time to become a student of Michael Laitman, who is the one that brings the message out in the open public space so that everyone who wants to (everyone who has the Point in the Heart) can study and transcend all the way up the ladder to attainment of Equivalence of Form with the Creator.
Seeing and hearing this is of such particularly special meaning to me because I struggle a lot with self doubt, constantly wondering if I have been wrong most of my life when I was waiting and looking for the time when I found somebody who would and could teach me Kabbalah (I have “known” Kabbalah was key to my ascent since I was 28, and I am 65 now).
When I came upon a movie about Doc. Michael Laitman and his life’s work, what he has taken it upon himself to dedicate his life to doing – sharing kabbalah with, and making it accessible to, the world – I knew this was it. The time and the opportunity to do what I was always meant to do had finally come knocking and was standing at my door step. So of course, when I found out about Bnei Baruch and KabU, I jumped at this incredible chance.
And then what happens? I find myself thinking I can’t do it, I have build too much baggage, my ego has been given complete control, and I’m just not good enough to handle it and get through or passed it all.
This has been going on literally every week, but every time when I’m at my worst and feel most low, a new understanding (a transcendence) has happened during my work with the material, and I have been able to continue and understand that I am meant to do this, even if I still wonder how I will be able to do it.
There is always the possibility that I will fail, but I keep finding more proof that I have been right about Kabbalah being the way I am meant to travel, and so I will keep doing my best to succeed – not only because I want my own suffering to not having been for nothing, but because there have been times in my life where my own suffering was “extended” to and affected others negatively, simply because I was so sure I was meant to survive and become a force for good in the world.
One last thing I would like to mention: I have heard it mentioned a few times that those of us who have a very large ego shouldn’t be so sad because our Point in the Heart might also be large, and our drive to make up al 125 steps and attaining Equivalence of Form may be larger as well. This may be true, I can see a logic in the argument, but there is also the fact that the stronger forces you are dealing with, the greater the damage you can achieve instead of what you hope for, is also greater. Indeed, Doc. Michael Laitman mentions this as a fact in the second video on the Related page.
I apologize for taking up so much space, and promise to not make a habit of it.
My revelation is the notion of a surrounding light that I interact with — a light that responds to me. In conjunction with that, recently heard that:
In a vacuum tube photons were seen to be random, but after taking a pristine strand of DNA from an umbilical cord and placed it in the tube with the photons, they discovered that the photons aligned themselves with the DNA. An order immediately formed. The photons aligned themselves with the double helix structure of the DNA. I.e. The stuff we are made of influenced the photons, our surrounding light.
Source: Vacuum DNA Phantom Effect In Vitro Gariaev and Poponin 1995
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