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The video that I just watched on Inanimate, Vegetative, Animate was so enlightening. It helped me understand more regarding the deeper understanding of Kabbalah. Everything makes so more sense to me. It feels as if I (my Intention and Point in my Heart) am traveling, moving towards the achievement that I have intuitively been searching for. There is Light at the end of the steps. Thank you
When I first found books on Kabbalah, I bought as many as I could. Without understanding the specifics of all that I have learned now, I understood the Ten Siferot in a very basic manner. The Ten Serifot was illustrated as a Tree with a left and a right side to it, Mercy and Punishment Hence, without including religion, I understood solely on the basis, that Tikkun Olam was about repairing the world. I imagined this as a “net,” that needed to be repaired because it was torn. I understood that each of us as human beings needed to learn how to repair the net and that it took all of humanity as a whole to be responsible of each thread needed to be joined to others of like minds until the net was whole. That is as far as I got. However, I read several times the 613 Mitzvot and even more times the Perkei Avot. I learned that I needed to be kind to even those who sought to destroy me mentally and physically. I had acquired a rich Jewish library of books that I bought and was so thirsty to read each one, which I did. Everything that I have learned in these courses have led me to understand that the only thing that I reached from reading all of my books was limited to what Kabbalah is really about. In my lifetime, I have only truly and viciously hated two people who did such immense damage to my family and then to me. I had never hated. I had a friend who was a doctor. He became a sort of mentor. He was Catholic and I am Jewish. However, in our conversations, religions was never involved. I could not sleep with that much hatred in my heart. I would wake up in the middle of the night fully perspired as if I had taken a shower. I told my friend this. He smiled and told me to pray for them. I laughed sarcastically.  I left and when I got home and ready for bed, I thought about what he had said. My first prayer for these two people was insincere. However, I continued to pray each night. Before the end of the first week, the hatred began to dissolve in my heart. By the end of the two weeks, I was free of hate. My heart was full again and I slept soundly. I mention this because Tony talked about loving thy neighbor as thyself. I believe that 100%. I experienced it and felt the results. As I mentioned, I had never hated nor envied anyone even if anyone person insulted me. I have also mentioned before that when I pray, I pray for others, family included, my children. As for myself, I thank G-d for my life, the tragedies and the many blessings. I have lived adventurously with my children at my side. I have much to thank G-d. Experiencing all this and my limited knowledge of aligning myself with the Creator, am I close to achieving to begin the path back to the Creator?
I say my prayers in the morning and at night as per my religion. However, after I say my prayers, I talk to G-d and ask Him to bless the State of Israel, its inhabitants. I ask that He protect all Jews around the world. I ask that he bless all the loving fathers and mothers who work very hard to put food on their children’s table. I ask Him to protect all souls who should need Him. I ask for healing blessings for family members who are ill and for my children. My last words are to thank Him for my life. I thank Him because I came to believe that the tragic events and the blessed events in my life, all had a reason for happening. However, I took this in faith. Now I know that this “faith” of mine has led me to be interested in learning Kabbalah. I can continue to pray and talk to G-d. And I discovering the study of Kabbalah, my intention is definitely to learn the path towards the Creator. Hence, prayer and Kabbalah can still co-exist because they are two different concepts; one does not offend the other. The study and my great intention to acquire the Point in my Heart has now been offered to me and I am most grateful.
I am the tiny fish living in a larger world of sharks (egoism). However my existence as a tiny fish that has been predetermined to be part of other tiny fishes that when united, we will be able to swallow the egoism in this world, not by force but by a great desire to grow together to the size of the larger spirit and be a part of it. Learning Kabbalah will provide for me, the tiny fish, the tiny point in my heart to be properly guided outside the programmed box of fives senses so that I, as a tiny fish (my goal), will be able to exist the programmed box and enter into the “sixth sense.” I am today the tiny fish awaiting more guidance from the Kabbalists towards that path of Light.
When the desire for spirituality—the Point in the Heart–finally appears, the Creator places a person in an environment that will allow the soul to develop to perfection.
The third factor, the externals, can affect the quality of development of the essence, but not the essence itself.
There is only one thing that we can change in this entire system–the speed of development so that spirituality can be achieved in one lifetime.
When we give joy to the collective soul, even though each feels the joy and the closeness individually, this reception becomes bestowal.
I am pointing these quotes because it gives me a better opportunity to explain what I have understood and where I find myself. I could write a book about the “externalities” in my life. However, it would be pointless after what I have learned. I believe I have felt the Point in my Heart several times. And then given in to the externalities more than the Spirituality. I believe that at this point in my life, I want to change the speed of my development so that I can achieve Spirituality in this lifetime. I completely understand that I need, we need to belong to a collective soul of like minded individuals to bring about the reception that will become bestowal. In other words, in terms of free will, I have freely chosen Spirituality and will stay on this path so that my soul will continue to adhere to the Creator. I believe and I understand. Thank you!
I just finished watching Fundamentals of Kabbalah with Dr. Laitman. A lot of questions were asked from the people in different parts of the world about what they needed to do to reach the Creator. They wanted Dr. Laitman to tell them specific instructions on what to pray for, how to act, the Hiddeness of the Creator,etc. Dr. Laitman tried to explain the there had to be an intention in the point of the heart to begin the journey. Some wanted to insist on how to stop suffering. I realized that many were confused. I thought I understood quite a bit when I began these courses since I had read about Kabbalah before. As I began watching the videos, reading the material, and listening to the lectures, I thought I was understanding. However, with every week that I would learn something different, I would get confused. What blew my mind was watching the video of question and answers with Dr. Laitman. Listening to all the questions the audience was asking and listening to Dr. Laitman’s responses, I understood why I could not “see” the Creator, understand that my suffering, my happiness, everything that has happened in my life is from the Creator. I need to change my perception, which I am doing, and understand that the more I close in on the intention to change through kindness and Torah, I will be able to begin the upward 125 steps. I also understood the true meaning of how to pray, pray for others and the world.
