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What most inspired me in the course? The course awakened the awareness of the Creator in me and around me at all times. That idea, for some reason, took on a whole new meaning and became real to such a degree, that it allowed me to see it as a reality. That awareness guided and inspired me in my daily life and as I read and watched the material.
What have I learned about myself in the process? I began to understand that I am actually a spark of the divine. I thought I understood this but now I feel it and focus much more intentionally on that very important principal.
What do I wish for my fellow students in their spiritual development? If everyone else is more or less at my level of development in this course of understanding, my strongest wish is that each one of us starts with the belief that we are not the ego. We are divine souls united with the Creator. What we have yet to perceive is greater and greater perception as we learn the mechanics. That conviction motivates us as we navigate the course.
Believe in the upper force and focus on it throughout the day, everyday in everything you do. Becoming aware of it establishes the connection. Reading Kabbalah with intention to perceive the upper force, not to memorize or necessarily understand everything increases faith and the upper force begins to act on you.
I wish for each of you to have the inspiration to persevere in these studies so we can all see the Upper World together!
I stay focused as much as I can on the idea the Creator is I’m me and everywhere at all times and I share His consciousness.  That concept has much more meaning today than before. It is the doorway to understanding, at least for me. I have begun to accept my life and every condition I faced because I know I had things to do here and the dots are starting to really connect. Now I feel like the Creator, everything else and I actually co-exist in one consciousness, just partitioned from my senses. That reminds me to love everything, act accordingly and, by all means, generate love at all times.
As I watched the video “Perception of Reality”, I remembered the quote, “God is love and love is God.”
Love is a thing, the video says, and not just a thing. It’s THE thing I should be working to let in. I can ascend with that.
What is it? I feel it, but I can’t really define it. Where does it live? Is there a lot more out there? Can I please have more of that? Can I build something beautiful with it? What would that big, beautiful thing be and for who? I don’t want it but I want others to have it!
I want to perceive the divine reason for my own particular victories, defeats, choices, mistakes, good deeds, sacrifices, setbacks, suffering… the whole chaotic bundle.
In this part of my life called “the youth of old age” I am losing the drive to re-establish what I lost and even to attain anything else, but still have to live here. A part of me is done with it all, another wants to continue but not for the same reasons that brought me here.
I still want to protect my wife, continue to be a source of love and inspiration to our grown children, nurture our grandchildren; to be the best friend, brother, uncle, businessman and person I can be. I feel a strong calling to reconcile the books, to openly share everything that’s in my heart and in my mind but I don’t know exactly how to balance the desire to love with the need to keep building. I want to build something but it has to be beautiful and it can’t just be for me. I has to be for… someone or something else.
For who? For what?
The unmistakable voice of my ego whispers all is lost, but a faint voice in the distance tells me there was a higher reason for every moment, every step. In some passing thoughts that have begun to stay a little longer, every memory of the past reveals the true dimensions of my ego and I have to look away. But I continue to stare sometimes now because from this point it seems I can build the screens to allow the light to enter.
The light. What is this light I feel drawn to?
Someone please show me how you build a screen so I can meet this light!
